It is easier for me to avoid typing in caps, than it is to avoid speaking too loudly.

I had a psychiatrist verbally acknowledge that my loud voice is a ptsd response.

My lack of voice volume control is disabling to me in the context of my voice being in the hearing range of other people.

Bad: being loud.

But I cant control my voice volume sometimes.

I cant help my volume unless I can communicate in non-noisy ways, like text and writing...

but often, the person in charge of my health and safety refuses to read what I have typed or written.

For example:
the landlord employee had refused to read something I typed on a phone.

Refusing to read my words in those situations where I cant keep my voice down...

... is disabling to me.

Society disables me when they refuse my disability accommodation of me needing to use/send/communicate with readable words.

I get in trouble my safety at risk, when I cant keep my voice volume in socially acceptable levels.

Society is disabling to me. See?

Bad: being loud.

But I cant control my voice volume sometimes.

I cant help my volume unless I can communicate in non-noisy ways, like text and writing...

but often, the person in charge of my health and safety refuses to read what I have typed or written.

For example:
the landlord employee had refused to read something I typed on a phone.

@joat Haha. I could use that on a t shirt.

I'm terrified I am going to be denied housing over a landlord employee so upset with me, over something I have no idea what upset her enough to call her manager to ball me out for something I said, and I have no idea what I said that triggered her to be that upset.

I'm terrified, yet they have told me in some indirect way, they are afraid of me.

I dont know what to do!

I dont want to do bad things.

I been accused of bad things across my whole life.

I get punished for those bad things, I'm denied access to things I want to enjoy, because the controllers of that thing assumed I did a bad and wanted me to go away.

Medical, dental, fast food, parties, even schooling... things I wanted access to, I am denied, because they assumed I did things I didnt do.

Dont argue?

I cant always turn around and walk away, like when it is the landlords employees assuming I've done something bad.

If I am not going to be defensive against false accusations...

What do I do instead?

I'm already known as a crazy lady, so why not.

I want to be a voice actress. Lets see how real I can sound.

I think I will turn into the crazy barking lady.

I only bark in response.

And if I get in trouble by someone around here?

What? Dogs can bark and I cant?

Barking in response to a dog barking, genuinely helps me feel better about the daily barking that happens around here.

Since I was very young, I learned to defend myself against false accusations...

Has this not been the right way to conduct myself?

A lot of my problems with people arise when I defend myself, through words.

Is this not the way?

@StarkRG well he was blasting his music after midnight while he was trying to get unstuck.

I trust the cop to handle things.

@StarkRG I rather stay away and not get directly in line of fire,

@StarkRG Cop has arrived.

@StarkRG Dude has ran into a parked car and looks very stuck. Karma eh.

@StarkRG Got lucky, he drove in with his bass at volume PAIN... at 11pm. I can report noise after 10pm to my landlord management team (if they are not still afraid of me, waiting on a friend to talk to the management for me)

@StarkRG no way to link him to my heart attack or psychotic episodes, the latter, I am 99% sure is triggered by noisy neighbors.