Blegh. Feeling pretty sad today for no apparent reason. 😞

Migraines always suck, but this one is definitely the worst I’ve had in a while. Elbow, knee, and jaw joint pain in response to light, certain sounds, and even reading. So annoyed because I had to reschedule afternoon things I was looking forward to! Can’t even fall asleep to take a nap either. 😖

There *is* a field mouse though. Boone is actively on pursuit just before I need to hop onto a call. Because apparently the field mouse thinks trying to hide in this corner of the house is a good idea 🫠

Over the past couple of weeks, we’ve heard strange noises in the wall above the fireplace. My partner was convinced it was probably a couple of field mice or chipmunks. I thought they sounded like birds.

Well, this morning my partner comes over to me and he said, “what’s between a chipmunk and a bird?”

We’re thinking the noises we are hearing are bats. Bats in the wall, possibly somehow in the attic. 😯

And yes, few know this but I am bisexual/pansexual, probably some degree of genderfluid, and probably some degree of polyamorous. So, there you go.

First day of pride month during a tumultuous time makes me feel like I should really speak up. 🏳️‍🌈

You got a problem with LGBTQ+ folks, you got a problem with me. And I suggest you let that one marinate.

#PrideMonth #Pride2025 #GoodDistractions

The Fediverse is not perfect. But it's humane. Human. Its decentralized nature puts it light years ahead of any centralized or corporate-controlled social media platform (Bluesky is NOT truly decentralized yet).

The Fediverse is proof that we are still able - and eager - to interact on the internet free of corporate and government interference and manipulation. That we desire independence and freedom online as much as we do in real life. That human interaction and socialization is infinitely better when it is not monetized.

We need to protect this. Share this. It's special. It's a haven. And it is an essential tool to help us reverse the damage done to this world by tech bros, billionaires, and politicians who have sold their souls - and tried to sell ours - in exchange for money and power.

#fedi #fediverse #mastodon #socialMedia #bigTech

I wonder if it is a placebo effect, or if the additional supplementing of iron and vitamin D over the past couple of weeks could be making a difference.

Ever since I got the blood tests results back, I decided to take an additional iron supplement and vitamin D supplement everyday (along with the prenatal).

Over the past couple of days, I’ve been feeling a bit “different”. A good “different”. I can’t quite describe it.

Waking up in the mornings has still been difficult despite sleeping 7-8 hours. But in the early/mid-afternoon I’ve been feeling a tiny bit more momentum than I’ve felt over the past several months.

So a couple weeks ago, the blood tests from my annual physical showed I’m on the low end for both iron and vitamin D despite having been taking the prenatal supplements everyday for the past year and a half. Now, granted, supplements really only work best with good nutrition and lately I’ve been eating like a bird (appetite has been meh).

Okay so good news about my feralpoasting over on LinkedIn in the #WeirdLinkedIn circles: someone just asked me about Drupal as a potential alternative for a project they’ve so far been building out in Wordpress.

Bad news: I think I’ve forgotten how to talk Drupal to anyone who isn’t already deeply familiar with it.

But, this is good practice though. Get to clean off the rust!

The perfect metaphor for the fediverse doesn't exis...

(From faculty slack)

It makes me wonder if “conditioned taste aversion” can apply to non-foodstuffs too 🙃

Second thing: architecture and development mode. In the past, those are things that I would easily get my mind into and get me into the “flow state” so to speak. Especially if there was something I was trying to do frontend related or Drupal related.

But for the past several months, I’ve been having a very hard time getting myself to do anything like that with just about any tech at all. When I sit down to do something, my mind either goes blank or wanders off in a very unrelated direction

First thing: my home office. That has always been my space to do whatever I please. Whether it is tech related, makeup related, or clothes related (my other closet is there).

But for the past couple of months, something has felt “off” whenever I go into my office. So, instead of me doing anything on my laptop in my office, I’ve decided to occupy the dining room table as my “office” instead. Things feel better that way, even though it doesn’t make sense to me about *why*.

Anyways: if it hasn’t been obvious based upon either my toots here or my feral posts over on LinkedIn, I’ve been struggling these past several months.

And, there are 2 things in particular I’ve been struggling with that, rationally speaking, I shouldn’t be struggling with. But am.

When I was taking “Intro to Neuroscience” in undergrad, I remember the professor briefly introduced us to the phenomenon of a person eating their favorite food while sick but then—once they’re healthy—they find themselves either feeling sick whenever eating that favorite food again or just not wanting to eat that favorite food again.

I think it’s called “conditioned taste aversion”.

#Neuroscience #WhyAreBrainsStrange

The Drupal Event Platform: a new stage of evolution. #drupal
https://www.mandclu.com/blog/drupal-event-platform-new-stage-evolution

You are still seen. Still valued. Still worthy. Even now.

Been deep in thought today. I don’t think being honest and transparent about what’s hard or difficult ever weakens someone. If anything, I tend to trust people more when they let some of the polish fall away.