One of the .. "benefits??" I guess of a #2E #autism diagnosis is that now when I see people I have worked with in the past seemingly breeze by me in climbing the ladder, getting into cooler more senior roles, I now know why.
I throw "better" in quotes because in the past I might have looked on that as a challenge and been all like "fuck that!!" and doubled down my efforts.. and now my brain says stuff like "maybe this is as high as far as you get? maybe they are just better than you?".
but then I still have enough of what got me here to be back at "fuck that" and adapt and overcome. Maybe knowing what my struggles are makes it much simpler for me to understand the constraints in my system, isolate and exploit them (aka Theory of Constraints).
Fuckits refilled.