:pixy_party: Ello sweet and very lovely Friendos :purple_heart_sparkle:

⚠️ Long Toot, my mind's rambling... Sorry...

Well, that didn't all go as I thought it would go... It's not bad, but I think I will crash down once everything has been done and when it's time to game a bit...

Arwen wanted a longer walk, so that surprised me a little. It was pleasant, but it also meant that we were back a bit later. No worries there... I was tired, but I also knew that I needed to exercise a little. So, I changed clothes and rode the bike for 30 minutes. Did a few light weight exercises.

I folded the dried laundry and then I got triggered a bit. I had not changed the bedding since the last time I had friends sleeping over. The winter duvets were still on and all that. So... I changed and cleaned the bedding, and the old covers are in the washing machine, ready to rumble once it's a little later during the day.

I managed to finish off two boxes, so it's a bit less messy again. And I prepared some things for when I finally will cover up the purple bits of the walls. If my hands weren't so tired from the bedding, I probably would have gotten the paint out as well.

I cleaned up the laundry and all that too. And now, I have a wee bit of time to relax. So, as my head was still buzzing, I got my tablet to write this and then some for my blog.

I don't mind when my brain "allows" me to be productive. But, I did take an extra pill to calm my head down some, as I will be overdoing it and then I will be a wreck with a major headache for the rest of the day... And I don't want that to happen, as I want to game a bit with a friend when all the chores have been done.

I will take Arwen to the Herperduin in about 20 minutes. And then, when we're back, I will fix some food and start the laundry. After the food and laundry... If my hands allow, I will try to get some of the purple paint in a little cup, and I can *finally* fix the bits that got damaged when dad helped me with the bigger shelf. It's been bugging me ever since. But, as I have been doing a lot of procrastinating lately, this always was something that "I should do".

So, hopefully, this morning, I will be able to do it. I have everything ready, I just need to get some paint in the cup that I saved for this. And, I saw that the wall above my pillow had some damages as well. It appears that my nails have hit the wall, but I can't remember ever doing that... Still, if I have to get the purple paint out, I best get that sorted too...

My AuDHD is on a roll this morning. I just wish that my body was more able to keep up with it all. And that I wouldn't always crash so hard when I've overdone it during moments like these. Even here, I am babbling because my brain is going woosh! :ablobcatblinkhyper:

Let's write a bit for my blog and then I can take Arwen to the woods again. It's a bit chilly this morning, and we could get some rain later today. But we don't mind, as we always enjoy our time at the woods (except when there's folks that can't control their dogs...😔 Or kids 😂 ).

I hope you will all have a lovely Sunday folks! I will do my best to get another Arwen vid when we get to the water side, and hopefully also some snaps... :ablobcatangel:

Catch you all later lovelies! :bear_love:

:pixy_party: :blobcatenby: :paw: :BlahajHoldingNeurodivergentSymbol:

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#AuDHD

I enjoyed a wonderful hour of bedrest this afternoon with my noise-blocking ear muffs, after a painfully noisy experience at the local car wash, where the vacuums which were still on but in their holsters were making horribly high-pitched squealing noises, and some rowdy kids were having fun turning all of them on nearby.

I internally forgave the kids, because they are children. I will remember next time to bring my ear muffs. #audhd

Considering a middle name change from Andrew to Diffident

#AuDHD

I hate being in a weird post stress mode. My face & eyes feel like I've spent half the day crying when I haven't. I also feel like anything could tip me over emotionally for no reason.

Not knowing when I'll snap out of it as I can't communicate properly when I'm locked into this , I don't know, major stress incident aftermath mode.

I think maybe my depression got a power boost or two or three & I got the opposite. Would love to crawl under a rock but that would mean, getting changed, going out into the world & finding a suitable rock. I can't face going out.

#Life #Stress #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Depression #Burnout #Spoons

Taken care of stress headache with painkillers & a litre of blackcurrant.

Feeling a little more chill & will make tomorrow a 'do-over' as nobody should be this let down & stressed about shit on their one day a year.

Movie next, Joker DVD whilst I figure out if I still want a takeaway.

#Life #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic

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Dass ich in den letzten Jahren gelernt hab, dass ich sagen darf, was ich brauch und mir wünsche, macht man Leben merklich besser. Es ist wild, dass die Menschen, mit denen ich mich umgebe, das einfach ernstnehmen und drauf achten. 🥰 #AuDHD

Insomnia, or more accurately in this instance, "ooh! Daylight coming in round the blackout curtain-liner that's coming away from a single layer blackout curtain that blocks all light bar even cloudy day level daylight 🤦.
Combined with me watching a film after midnight as I was too determined to get my new laptop de-Windozed a la Linux. 🤦🤷

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Hyperfocus #Computers #Tech #Linux

Good afternoon, professor.

I would like to request a small extension for my assessment.

Unfortunately I completely forgot that I have adhd, and as such I drank a large McDonald's coffee biscoff frappe this morning. I now feel as though I could vibrate into the next dimension with anxiety.

You might be wondering how someone "forgets" that they have adhd? Well... it's the adhd.

Thank you for your understanding,
Aby.

PS: I can definitely recommend the McDonald's coffee biscoff frappe, but probably hold the ritalin chaser..

#audhd #autism #adhd #disability #neurodiverse #MentalHealth #Anxiety

I would love to teach you how to deal with both the physical and cognitive parts of anxiety, so you can get through each day, without wasting as much of your precious energy on worrying and overwhelm, so you can do the things you want and need to do—or let yourself off the hook without feeling terrible.
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Yesterday, I finally completed my longest outstanding executive dysfunction task. It took 34 years, but that poster is finally in a frame. How the hell it didn't get lost or ruined, even through having been homeless and fleeing clear across the country, is beyond my comprehension.

#ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #AuDHD

Honor your capacity. You’re not going to get out of it what you want if you’re trying to push so hard that you’re hurting yourself in the process.

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #Autistic #Acceptance #Neurodiversity #AutisticBurnout #BurnoutRecovery

I wrote almost 1500 words today, and I think they're pretty ok.

I have to edit it back, the paper is meant to be 1500 total, and I still have 3 other parts of the question to address. I can see where I've gone over the same points a few different times, so I'll be able to drop words by clearing that up.

I also have to go through and find sources/add citations.. when I write about this sort of thing* I tend to use the Dothraki citation system - "it is known..." and then go back and plug in references because I Know My Shit (and I read extensively). Anyways, that's tomorrow's problem.

I am pretty chuffed with how much I got done, especially considering I hadn't planned to work on it today because I was so frustrated about not getting anything done yesterday.

#uni #Academia #Criminology #CriminalJustice #university #audhd #autism #adhd #dyslexia

* the paper is meant to be an article for my Indigenous Australians and Justice subject, outlining the first 6 topics which covered invasion, settler-colonialism, racial ideology, government policy from 1788-1991, Aboriginal peoples relationship with the criminal justice system, and "partnership building" (in 1500 words 🙄)

EMDR kicked my ass today.

This is not a new thing for my journey through EMDR. But, I feel like an open nerve ending, just experiencing everything around me.

Ugh.

#mentalhealth #cptsd #audhd #anxiety

Autism describes a spectrum of neurological experiences & rising diagnosis rates reflect better awareness and screening—not an epidemic. We shouldn’t aim to ‘remove’ autism, but to affirm autistic brains, address disabling challenges, and push society to better accommodate neurodiversity. #ADHD #Autism #AuDHD
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In some ways, unmasking created a lot more internal distress than when I was masking, because it was offering up more of my authentic self, and when that was rejected, it hurt more.

When I was offering up a mask, the rejection wasn’t as personal.

#AutisticMasking #unmasking #ActuallyAutistic #Autistic #AuDHD

I am working on retraining my thinking, when I start to get intense anxiety about something, I talk myself down saying that I can't know the future, and the adult me can handle whatever comes my way. #audhd #anxiety

Kennt jemand in Hamburg, Selbstverteidigungskurse, Judo, Karate .... in Hamburg mit/für Menschen mit ADHS/ASS wo auch auf dinge wie Kraft regulation/Motorische schwächen ... eingegangen wird.

Überlege was zu machen, ist aber schwierig da ich oft nicht meine Kraft einschätzen kann, und die Motorik da auch Probleme macht da würden normale Kurse nicht Funktionieren.

#Autismus #adhs #audhd #neurodiversität #judo #Karate #hamburg :BoostOK:

Ugh... It's been a while since this happened... But my brain is fighting heavily with my body again.
I am feeling so very tired. So, after some low level exercice, I lay on the couch and I hoped for some relaxing time.
But my brain keeps jumping from this to that, it keeps wondering about things that I should or could be doing.
My GP gave me some meds to help me with moments like these, when the ADHD meds itself weren't getting my brain quiet enough. So to speak...
Just took the first one of those pills. I hope that it will work soon.
I feel like I need to be doing loads of things at the same time, but I also feel like I need to sleep for at least two hours or so, to recharge...
So, I do what I usually do when my brain gets too busy like this... I write!

First, I wrote this... And when I send this toot, I will start on a blog post.

I've lived with my AuDHD for all my life... :blobcat_tonguewink: I got a diagnosis about 14 years ago. I didn't start my methylphenidate meds until about 1½ years ago. It took a while to find the right dosage, which for me, is at the maximum that they usually prescribe. And it's been helpful for sure. But, moments like this, I just feel like my meds aren't doing anything, and the thoughts are so intrusive and giving me a headache. They tire me out, even more than any physical exercise would do at this moment...

So, I will write, and I hope that the pill I've just taken will help me to relax bit better...

:pixy_party:

#ADHD #AuDHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAuDHD :BlahajHoldingNeurodivergentSymbol: