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#adhs
#timeblindness

It could just be me, but I have to set alarms and reminders on my watch because I will forget that I have food being made in the air fryer or food left out to defrost. #adhd #timeblindness #whatistime

You know how at times we are aware of the age of a fact/thought/memory in our minds? Like it has a certain texture about it? Dreams can manipulate this. A dream is an altered mind state. What if the reason for neurodivergent time-blindness has to do less with hyperfocus or awareness in itself, and more to do with the moments we usually refer to, to keep time, lacking that texture or us being unable to discern that texture in our most common states?
#neurodivergence
#timeblindness
#theory

#ADHD moment 9,975,271: I looked at my watch, saw I had 5 minutes u til my scheduled lunch, somehow got so distracted I ended up pulling books to withdraw for an hour and 20 minutes, then realized what time it was when my cart was overflowing with books and I could barely push it back to my desk. #HyperFocus #TimeBlindness

“Time flies when you’re having fun.” Or a specific kind of miserable.
Brought to you by ADHD and that last 20% of a coding task that takes 80% of the time because it should have just worked.
#ADHD #TimeBlindness #frustration #programming

Valentine’s Day Thoughts

In all honesty, I never really think about that holiday??

My sweet Danish partner reminded me it existed today and I told him that due to my time blindness I’m likely to find myself in a situation out of a sitcom where someone who has a crush on me invites me over or something, I have no fucking clue what day it is, everyone else gets extremely upset with me, and I just end up rolling with it and they confess their love for me with flowers and chocolate and I’m like “I’m so sorry… what year is it again” 😭

I’ve forgotten my own birthday before. I’m not fucking kidding. I tend to forget Valentine’s Day exists especially hard because I wasn’t exactly…. Desirable until well into adulthood, and even now it’s still a mindfuck to me that people want to date me at all? So wheee. AuDHD is a helluva thing.

-Allēna

#actuallyADHD #actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #chronicFatigue #MadMastodon #MadStudies #mentalhealth #NEISvoid #neuroqueer #strokeSurvivor #tbi #Timeblindness

Me when I’m asked any question ever:

Brain doesn’t work. I can’t help you there, bud.

-Lazarus

#Collage #dumbshit #meme #objectImpermanence #Shitpost #Timeblindness

Are you even a timeblind artist until you’ve painted several neon melting clocks?

I’m kidding.

But I do paint melting clocks on occasion. Like this one.

Hehehe….

#actuallyAuDHD #artist #DigitalArt #meltingClock #neuroqueer #SalvadorDali #synesthesia #Timeblindness

So I Think I May Be More Aroace Than Originally Estimated??

I’ve been doing some Thinking about how my brain works, and it would seem that my particular DICK HEAD COMBINATION OF AUDHD gives me the worst traits of both autism AND ADHD. Like, if given enough stimulants and time, I can hyperfocus forever on something I’m fascinated with to the point where I learn an ungodly amount of information about it and retain nearly all of it. Not just that, but I make creations with that knowledge, too. This fucking blog, for example. It’s linked in with the Fediverse via ActivityPub and Alex Kirk’s masterful Friends plugins, etc.. My numerous special interests have been combining, reshuffling and making unholy bastard children in my mental Back 40 on this tiny hell site since May because of the way my cracked brainhole works.

Conversely, in order to socialize, I have to focus on whatever social thing is going on around me completely and let myself dissolve into it. Switching between whatever the fuck project has taken hold of my mind and going into a social activity of any form is a multistep process that requires me ACTUALLY MANUALLY SHIFTING MY BRAIN AWAY from the project rabbit hole and into the social one. And there is a grouchy hell to pay if I’m interrupted mid project.

However, I thought about it a step further. I have pretty much always been able to discern the difference between the feelings I get when the various happy chemicals, dopamine, oxytocin, and serotonin, are triggered in my brain, body, etc., and upon further contemplation, I began to wonder if that’s why my particular bastard flavor of AuDHD is such a bastard to begin with. Because what I noticed from years of combing back through my system’s memories both pre and most massive integration is that my happy chemicals seem to be fucking heavily partitioned, and perhaps that’s why I can discern the difference between the feelings they give me in the first place. Hence that’s probably why I have to manually shift between projects (dopamine) and socializing (oxytocin).

Serotonin is a whole other can of worms for me and I have to manually induce that bitch, too. It often takes days and that’s a whole OTHER post. I might write about that bastard chemical later, lol. She is a cruel mistress 🤣

Last night, a long time aroace friend dropped me into a Facebook group called [aroace confusion intensifies]. I’ve identified as demi-aromantic/demi-asexual for some time, but as I kept relating to more and more posts, I thought more and more about the happy chemical partition theory I have going and all of my relationships, both current and past, and how my batshit brain might play into ALLLL of that.

Now, I do experience attraction to SOME people. But with the whole “having to shift my brain manually into a state where it won’t scream when I need to socialize” thing, the frequency in which I fall into random projects, and the fact that I experience a near complete lack of linear time and object permanence, said attraction takes a VERY LONG TIME to form, if it ever forms at all. Deep, genuine, romantic attachment to a person takes EVEN FUCKING LONGER. Because what the ENTIRE fuck is a “romance” as society has established it, anyway? So it takes my crippled ass YEARS sometimes to get a damned clue. And I think my cracked brainhole is why, lmao. Polyamory has been a lifesaver in that regard because in order to have a healthy polyamorous relationship, the people involved HAVE TO ENGAGE IN A HEFTY AMOUNT OF NEGOTIATION FROM THE OUTSET about expectations and things about the relationship, which my clueless ass can DEFINITELY get behind. 🤣

So unfortunately, when person number ten billion comes up to me is like “LAZARUS. I LOVE YOUR WORK. I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. PLEASEEEEEE DATE ME, ETC”, more often than not, I have just emerged from my mental Laz Cave, haven’t seen or interacted with a soul in fourteen hours or more, and haven’t shifted into Oxytocin Mode yet, which is necessary for human bonding, so I’m like,

“uh. What year is it again?”

Stay tuned for more (brainhole) magic, gremlins.

-Lazarus

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Well, this is a very succinct and accurate explanation of #ADHD #TimeBlindness to send to other people.

https://youtube.com/shorts/0_dcE_9Km9g?si=QXtP8YJdLt4p9Nqo

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One of those things that seem really weird to me and I think may be due to time blindness: people wishing me good morning

It's a nice gesture, sure, but I don't perceive morning. It doesn't feel like morning, it feels like hour 55 into the work week, they all kind of run into each other and there's no delineation in my brain. There is no morning/day/night, there is work and downtime/recovery and sleep and I'm just hurtling through that cycle until it's over for more than 24h.

Maybe it's a good thing they wish me this so I can keep track somewhat

#ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #TimeBlindness

4 PM.

I forgot to eat. Now I've made french toast and gonna eat it like there is no tomorrow.

#Hyperfocus + #timeblindness are part of my #AuDHD. Yay.

Staring helplessly at a project budget spreadsheet, completely unable to estimate the time it will take to finish anything.

I want to help the team, since we are currently shorthanded, but my #adhd #timeblindness is rendering me useless.

@miekeroth

Hilarity ensues as my AuDHD #hyperfocus then directed me to start writing a blog on… you guessed it:

Hyperfocus - one of the #Neurodiverse superpowers.

Of course, it has downsides like #TimeBlindness. Case in point it is almost 2AM here. I am exhausted. May the passion return tomorrow.

#adhd friends: One of my adhd female friends asked for effective strategies for scheduling and #TimeBlindness due to being chronically late. If anyone has any great tips or resources, let me know. This has become a much less frequent issue for me now that my schedule and commitments have all drastically reduced.

ADHDers!
I just discovered an app (FREE. WITH NO ADS) that's amazing for timekeeping your tasks!

It's called Clockify.
You also get proper graphs/stats of how you spend your time as you use it more. I really hope this sticks for me because it's been great :artaww:

#adhd #neurodivergent #clockify #timeblindness

Linear clocks. Mostly just leaving this here for myself to come back to it so come point. In no particular order:

1. https://tymetab.com/

2. https://github.com/KraquotteSauvage/linear_clock

3. https://cheetachu.github.io/linear-clock/?startHour=11&endHour=3

#TimeBlindness