So I was a candidate for the board of a certain national org in an upcoming GA. Today I withdrew my candidacy. Luckily all parties involved, my own org and the national org are very understanding and accommodating, and I didn't face any pressure over this decision.
The positive is that I'm finally starting to recognize, and accept, when I'm sliding back deeper into burnout, and that I simply can't do, in some responsible manner, everything I'd want to do. It sucks, it hurts, there's grief and feelings of failure, and all that needs to be acknowledged and processed.
Recovery is not linear, return to the past is not sustainable.
#AutisticBurnout