#heartbreak

The World at Wartheworldatwar
2025-06-17

Infantrymen of the US First Army move silently through the snow covered Krinkelter woods, Belgium during the Battle of Heart Break Crossroads - Dec 1944.

The Battle of Heartbreak Crossroads began one day before the Battle of the Bulge at a vital 3 way junction near a forester’s cabin and the former border post named Wahlerscheid.

Lord.BobbelLordBobbel
2025-06-14

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Mein Baby 😭💔♥️ wird mir irgendwann den schlimmsten Herzschmerz bereiten 😢😢😭😭

Hoffen wir es kommt nichts schlimmes übernächste Woche beim Ultraschall raus 😰😰

Geht’s euch auch so, oder habt ihr schon alles durchgeplant? Schreibts mal in die Kommentare 🫶🏼🐾

When our summer’s day is cancelled and melts away

Summer has arrived and the atmosphere has changed. People are excited to be outside socialising and it seems like every family is making the most of the warmth.

A heatwave was predicted to arrive for the weekend and I wanted to make the most out of the popular family area at Steel Space in City Square. The water fountains there are adored by kids.

I asked your mum where she would drop you off and pick you up. This way, I could organise and maximise our time by asking your grandma and Clive to meet us at City Square before handing you back to your mum at 4pm.

Last summer I had more time with you, but your mum has cut it back to 4pm. For many families their fun is barely starting while by 3:15 I’m having to get back towards the handover point.

Another disappointment

On Saturday your mum sent me a message to inform me you had had a rough night.

I’d spent the last couple of days making plans with family and working out the itinerary so I could keep you cool but also make the most of our time.

I went to various supermarkets to ensure I had lots of options for your lunch and afternoon snacks too. Watermelons were in high demand but I didn’t stop until I had one, so I could hydrate you with refreshing slices.

Stupid optimism

Yesterday, I went to a Elly’s BBQ who lives nearby. While I socialised, I had you on my mind and tried to be positive that you’d be better for our Sunday together.

Jenny baked a tasty cake so I asked her what she included, to make sure it was suitable for you, and brought some home for you to try.

The fridge was full of watermelon, I had all the ingredients ready for lunch and plenty of snacks. It was hard to sleep, I was eager to see you.

The dreaded message

I don’t know why I let myself get upset when I finally saw the message cancelling. I can’t even go up and visit you to look after you when you’re unwell.

The feeling of not seeing you arrests me. It took me hours to get myself together after trying to figure out how to fix this situation.

I know things will change somehow so I’m doing everything to make sure you will always have a happy welcoming home with me.

https://open.spotify.com/track/7vkCAgrDDv3AgRCXYJUUoD?si=a2c1cb2320aa45dd

I picked this song because it’s monotonous and repetitive. Just how this situation feels.

We’ll have our sunny days together

I’m fast losing the moments of having you run around naked in the sun, filled with joy and a huge smile – the one I love so much.

I’m thinking about our future, the next decade. We’ll have lots of lovely moments together. One day we’ll fall asleep in the park together. One day we’ll go camping together. I can’t wait. They will be some of my happiest moments in my life.

I’m sick and upset about losing so many precious moments, I hate it and just want to skip forward to when we can spend the day together and chat all day, without anything to worry us.

Please always know it wasn’t me not wanting to look after you when you were unwell. Your mum is doing everything she can to stop us having a relationship. I’m sorry everything is a mess.

I promise when you’re able to make the decision yourself, you’ll always have a home with me.

Listen through the podcast

https://open.spotify.com/episode/2dkIVglYeSeGEVfu0ttySn?si=LqSAEOM9Sse72q5woZ9L6A

#cancelledDay #dadBlog #dadLife #daughter #family #familyCourt #familyDiary #fatherSRights #fatherhood #heartbreak #hostileCoparent #missingYou #myGirl #myLove #parentalAlienation #parenting #summerIsHere #withoutYou

Man carrying a watermelon and a shopping basket in a greengrocer's
2025-06-06

New levels of petty hitherto unknown to science. #trump #musk #breakup #heartbreak #bestdayever

Headline from BBC news: Trump considering selling his Tesla and not interested in talking to Musk yet after public row
2025-06-05

Taylor Swift: You're Losing Me (from The Vault)

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2025-06-04

@GottaLaff

Consult the original recording by Vicki Carr (1967, OMG) to appreciate the full emotion:

youtube.com/watch?v=J-qgHOQ1of

#Music #Politics #Heartbreak

2025-06-02

Adele - Someone Like You (Official Music Video)

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2025-06-01

After such meticulous work is completed keeping users securely logged in, it's a little galling allowing them to log out.

#coding #heartbreak

Cherished time together after family court

After the court day, I’ve been in shock and struggling to make sense of what the rest of the year is going to be like. I can’t get excited about having you overnight and more of the same is what has been imposed on me.

Temporarily forgetting about problems

It’s hard to think about our time together without the disappointment, but your smell and beautiful face partly lets me forget about the problems while we’re together.

Today I picked you up from the station as usual, I had suncream to ensure I would protect your beautiful skin. I was keen to get back to our neighbourhood so we could make the most of the safe streets and play areas.

Your leggings were a little wet because you did a big wee which leaked slightly, so I took them off and it was the loveliest sight to see your legs out, I rarely see your skin apart from when I’m changing your nappy. I miss giving you a bath.

Sun’s out, legs out!

Funny little things you do

We chilled at home and played. Olivia bought you crayons which she also wrapped up. You’re such a lucky girl, getting presents all the time.

At home, I’m extremely happy to say that you know the rooms and the spaces and go about on your own. This is exactly what’s right. It’s your home, your space to enjoy and feel comfortable in.

For whatever reason you wanted to rearrange the pots kept on some shelves in the balcony. I love seeing you do your own thing.

Big girl lunch

You’re eating well and I think you’re more interested in proper food nowadays, so Olivia made us a tofu stir fry. A meal we have together regularly and I was pleased to share with you.

You didn’t like being in the high chair like usual, so you climbed out and sat with me, then went over to Olivia. Adorably, you fed her and your appetite seemed to grow with each bite. We’re lucky to have Olivia in our lives, she cares about you a lot and helped me cope during this horrendous year.

Home time, it’s hard.

Your mum asked me to drop you off at City Square station a few minutes earlier so she could get the train back. So at 3:25 it was already time to head back.

Even after a 40 minute nap you were tired from the day. It’s not right that you can’t stay overnight and be peaceful at home. I’ll keep trying to make it work, but I’m also desperate for the day when we can do more than just stay near home. I hate rushing back mid-afternoon, feeling hollow for the rest of the day without you.

Next time

7 more days till I see you again, all going well. I’m planning a picnic for us and to practice some rolypolies.

https://open.spotify.com/track/6gLziluLoYfPsu1Y2KKGNo?si=b695f0c6a318426f

Listen through the podcast

https://open.spotify.com/episode/7m3NBBXwnMF3NeF1vbhVrL?si=8OFnMcY9SKSKu_n3K1otFQ

#dad #dadLife #daughter #family #familyCourt #familyLife #fatherSRights #fatherhood #heartbreak #missingYou #myGirl #parentalAlienation #parenting #raisingAGirl #toddler

Happy father and toddler on a train journeyToddler standing on a rock in a park in the summerToddler at a balcony doorway with plant pots on the floor insideHappy woman feeding a toddler at a dining table

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