🖥️ Wow, what a #groundbreaking idea: feeding 24 years of #digital #ramblings to a #Markov model! 🤖 Just what we needed—a bot that regurgitates decades of 💤profound💤 musings. Can't wait for the next installment: "I trained a #neural #network on my #grocery #receipts." 🛒
https://susam.net/fed-24-years-of-posts-to-markov-model.html #idea #model #HackerNews #ngated

Mega corporations are the enemy of efficiency.

Tech and mass buying power create so much waste in their systems that smaller companies can’t compete. And i have been thinking too much about how the waste generated is tolerated so the decision makers ( & desk jockeys) can keep wages low and workers under educated. #ramblings

Watching Marcus the Worm videos to try to block out The Horrors ☺️

Idk what this means

Well I definitely didn’t see the northern lights (too much light pollution as it is) but I learned how to take more visible nighttime photos tonight. 🌌

I’ve almost filled the whole board.

Things I did today so far: woke up drenched in sweat, visited a metaphysical shop during their grand opening, got an overpriced drink since my mouth feels like the desert. Also gonna go to a new sapphic themed bookstore later. 🏳️‍🌈

I miss trick or treating. 🫩😩 Growing up really does suck, huh? I’ll always love Halloween a lot but that huge aspect of it ended for me a while ago. I’ve never been to a Halloween party that wasn’t put on for kids at school. Idk if I’d be comfy with adult parties anyway since people seem so determined to get wasted.

I look at the way teenagers overshare online these days and I’m like damn. I was just like that. Except instead of Vent, Huddle or even TikTok I was trauma dumping to strangers on DeviantArt, tumblr, and Instagram. I miss older versions of them a lot. DeviantArt was so fun once upon a time. Instagram wasn’t trying to replicate TikTok with short video formats. Tumblr didn’t have that nsfw ban yet.

/srs
So if I’m white (which I am,) where am I indigenous to? My ancestors were colonizers and immigrants to the US. THEIR ancestors came from somewhere else. An example is that Rus people came from what we know as Sweden today. Even if Sweden isn’t in my ancestry (debatable according to Ancestry.com updating their stuff every so often,) does that history make me Swedish? I don’t know if I’m making sense. That and where white people originated are something that I’m curious about. Humans weren’t snow white out of the gate.

It’s midnight so technically yesterday was my birthday u_u I’m 30 now

Brown Magnet and Audio Labs

https://bharadwajls.space/life/brown-magnet-and-audio-labs/

My mom wanted us to get groceries earlier today for her. I was already worried about it because I wasn’t very awake yet. I began getting more and more anxious while driving because I obviously didn’t want to get into an accident. When we actually got to the store I stayed in the car and tried to not have a panic attack. By the time Wren got back out with the food I was somewhat more awake so driving home was a little easier. My stepdad pulled me aside later and was asking if I’m okay & how I should let them help me. He was saying that the attacks are going to get worse as I get older if I don’t get help for them. I really do want therapy again but I’ve been putting it off for various reasons. I miss my therapist that I had for several years. I hope that she’s doing okay. I was supposed to get an autism assessment done where she works but by the time I was called about an appointment I had just moved to a new state. Part of me doesn’t want the assessment now because people will always treat someone who’s diagnosed with autism poorly. Not to mention that Trump is not helping with the ableism with the dumb things he’s said lately about being on the spectrum.

This girl is so demanding with her messages. 😬😰 I feel pressured to talk to her because she’s young and I think that she wants approval for whatever reason. I would feel guilty if I blocked her but I might do so. I worry that she’s lonely like I am so I don’t want to make it worse. Friendships with age gaps are difficult sometimes… but I struggle to make friends my own age as well. I feel sympathy for her because I didn’t have an older sibling at that age (or ever) to vent to or learn from. Now that I’m an adult™️ I actually want older sibling connections myself, someone to be around who aren’t my parents. Idk… feeling that only child loneliness deeply right now. People with no siblings need to be studied under a microscope. 😂

I think that you should be allowed to consume (some) problematic media sometimes. I’m tired of every other thing that I enjoy being axed by ‘fans’, sometimes before it can even get off of the ground so to speak. I’m an adult and believe it or not I have the brain capacity to look at said thing with a critical eye. Are there horrible people in this world? Yes, but not every misunderstanding or block button hit is a personal jab at you.

I’m so tired chat. I must’ve caught a stomach bug or ate something bad. :blobfoxcry2:

I've been exploring #speckit with #gemini (gemini-cli) for the last couple days. Writing software specifications that will be used for software development...

Gosh, I feel like I've stepped back to my college Software Engineering courses. I remember the good old days debating waterfall vs iterative software development.

In retrospect, It was always iterative software development. Waterfall model development was a product of the contractual nature of software development back in the days when there were a limited number of software developers.

#ramblings #softwaredevelopment