I'm afraid of becoming desensitised to violence,
of forgetting to find beauty in the everyday.
I'm afraid of losing hope, of being invisible,
of becoming bored of life,
of not being able to dance.
I'm afraid of being disconnected from Malaysia, from my friends and family.
I'm afraid of suffering, but not of dying.
I'm afraid of my anger.
And cockroaches.

And you?

#Phobophobia at @petrikirchehl on 17.4.25

Photos here by Lutz Rößler 📸

Thank you to the whole team for having me 🙏🏽🖤

Inszenierung & Konzeption Lilly Schaack, Mathis Dieckmann
Musikalische Leitung Sarah Proske
Bühne & Kostüme Carlotta Oetter
Dramaturgie Dr. Bernd Schwarze, Knut Winkmann
Wissenschaftliche Beratung Christina Bolte
Mit Bürger:innen der Hansestadt Lübeck, SueKi Yee, Alex Junge, Sänger:innen und Instrumentalist:innen der Musikhochschule

#suekixel #shotsofsueki #performance #tanz #dance #kunst #art #collaboration #fear #shadow #silhouette #dancer #angst #body

🌊🌷☀️Moving to spring - the lapping waves, the earth bursting with life, the arching branches, the sweet birdsong, the secret lives contained in reflections.🫧🌱🦆

*Part 1

I stumbled across this spot back in Nov 2023 while working on another project. I wanted to dance then but it was cold and grey.
"Stumbled" across it again yesterday when I noticed I'd marked the spot on google maps (mine is full of nowhere spots I want to dance in). Feels like a full circle moment.
After dancing, 2 wood ducks flew up onto the grassy banks! They took their time arranging their feathers, and eventually nestled in sleep, their eyelids flickering open sporadically to reveal rolled-back white eyes. I watched them for a long time, somehow almost moved to tears that they came so close to me. Eventually I left them quietly, still blissfully in slumber.

#suekixel #lübeck #artist #improv #suekimprov #dance #dancer #danceeverywhere #movement #nature #danceinnature #spring

Sometimes you find a spot and you just can't get it out of your mind. And you dream of dancing there, even if it's 18 months later.

And I finally did yesterday! But Pixelfed still doesn't allow me to share videos? If anyone knows a trick, let me know!

#lübeck #reflection #water #nature #colours #spring #sun #distortion #suekixel #view #scenery

Honored to be included in Grazia MY's "Creative Class of 2025" among other amazing creative women!

Interview by Pravin Nair.
Artwork here by Valery Koh which depicts me rather accurately - perpetually falling into some rabbit hole, and having different parts of me conversing with myself. 🫧

https://www.grazia.my/creative-class/grazia-creative-class-2025-sueki-yee/

#suekixel #collage #art #crochet #movement #dance #creative #grazia #malaysia #dancer #artist #artistfeature #magazine #zine #colours #dopamineclothing #rainbowlife

Nature's gradient.




#bark #tree #nature #suekixel #green #symbiosis

When you're both Elphaba and Glinda 💅🏼🌿🌷💚💗




#pinkgreen #dopamineclothing #colourful #colourlife #fashion #blazer #checkers #colour #suekixel

Solar eclipse of the heart.

#solareclipse #eclipse #naturalphenomenon #nature #sky #suekixel

A stained glass graphic liner look from a year ago that matches my crocheted hood and thrifted vintage jacket!
Hoping to experiment more again especially now that spring is coming! Colours popping out from the earth always inspire me. ❤️💚🩷💙💛💜




#graphicliner #faceart #art #experimentalmakeup #makeup #stainedglass #colour #colors #crochet #hood #dopamineclothing #suekixel #häkeln

Oops matched my door today.



#suekixel #fashion #dopaminedressing #dopaminefashion #colours

Some documentation of my experience with polymer clay!!
🪻🪼🥝☀️🪸🦩🫧
Swipe to see somr process.
Made some chunky rings (all the better for punching with) and a ring holder.

Workshop by Mali Kreations at Curious Fabrications, Berlin.


#polymerclay #art #arttherapy #colourtherapy #craft #craftcafe #artist #experiment #suekixel

If you swipe through the photos, it’s roughly the mood changes I have in a day 🪩🛼🫧🫦🪞💎🎈

“Anders Durch Halbe Sachen” last year in Cologne and Berlin!

Co-creation, dance: myself, Manu, Tina
Music: lindred
Interview-based sound work, Moderation: Anika Krbetschek
Trailer/Video installation: Moe Sabah
Costume, make up: mirjamophuels , MFJ
Stage design: Julie veronique
Outer Eye: Carla Jorão, Reut Shemesh
Concept, Choreography: Tina Streich
Artwork Poster/Flyer: Rage Audacity

Residency support: @quartieramhafen , den @freiraum_duesseldorf Düsseldorf, and @unlabel_company
Co-production partner: club 68 e.V..
Funded by Kulturamt der Stadt Köln and Landesverband für Darstellende Künste NRW.

Thank you for capturing these moments! 🙏🏽
1: Michael Koenigstein
Other photos: Oliver Stroemer

#adhs #adhd #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #dance #dancer #tanz #kunst #art #theater #performance #performer #suekixel #shotsofsueki #movement #physicality

Sculpting the body,
sculpting space,
sculpting the infinite blood-, air-, neural pathways I contain.




Photos by Gayle Belvis 💕


#suekixel #shotsofsueki #photoshoot #danceshoot #movement #dance #dancer #sculpting

Is it just me or colour coordination can just make my day?

#dopaminedressing #dopamineclothes #rainbowlife #suekixel #fashion #crochet #slowfashion #buckethat #colours #neon #patterns

While I wait hopefully that posting videos will be enabled on Pixelfed again (if someone knows how to do that lmk!), here's a rare non-dance shoot from a while back.

All sides of me are part of me, here's one out of many.



Photo by Patrycja Stachow

#suekixel #shotsofsueki #photoshoot