Some (everyone who knows me) might call me obsessed with my favourite bands (they are right) and that music isn't a suitable substitution for therapy (they are wrong).
#blackbriar #blackbriarmusic #thorns #music #MusicObsessive #musicobsession #gothicmetal #gothmetal #roses #taxidermy #selfmade #musichumor #bandhumor #gasmask #witchinghour #top5 #topthingstodo #whyamilikethis #bpd
I've noticed a weird corner-case in my psychology that I don't have a name for, but it's definitely there.
Picked up a loaner car from my mechanic because they have my car in to change the oil (side-note: thanks folks! The fact yinz offer a loaner car is huge). On the loaner contract, they highlighted a part where I had to bring a receipt proving I'd filled the gas tank.
This is new, so I asked what's up: normally I just bring the car back with the tank full. I even top it off for them because, hey, it's like three spare bucks for me and it saves someone on the staff a trip out in the cold.
Boss tells me the needle sticks a bit, so the receipt is to make sure it got filled. "Even if it's just fifty cents," he says, "need the receipt." Otherwise, they charge a flat $20 for a courtesy fill.
Now, my normal process is: drive over, fill the tank at the station two minutes from their garage, drop it off. But now that a receipt is involved? I'm inclined to fill it two minutes from my office, drive a half-hour to their garage and drop it off... Just so there's less actual gas in the tank.
I don't know why I'm like this. But when someone replaces a reasonable system between two rational actors with a contract and rules, it's like part of my brain flips a switch and goes "Oh. There are rules now. That must mean this is a game. And I intend to win."
peace and blessings witches and exorcists, @solarheartmind here
just dropping another quote by @nobuhojimichaan from the #whyamilikethis episode on the topic of 'death'
this quote describes a journey that sols may take when those sols aren't coherent enough to make it back to ma'at
https://m.thebroom.us/@radio/112596632911757410
(1/3, post continued below ⬇️)
hi everyone!
here is another quote by @nobuhojimichaan from the #whyamilikethis episode on the topic of 'death'
if it aligns, feel free to reply below:
have u had experiences where ur awareness in the lower chakras was not connected to the heart fire? how did it take shape for u and/or what did u learn from those experiences?
hello, @solarheartmind here -
this quote by @nobuhojimichaan from the #whyamilikethis episode on 'death' struck many chords for me
while considering my personal experiences with disassociation/mental health, the gnosis within this quote has allowed me to reflect on the importance of increasing capacity to be with pain + has acted as a reminder that there is no 'end point' to healing/refinement
The Gift And Curse of Associative Memory, Part Ten Billion
Every time I’ve opened Tusky, my Mastodon client, today, I get this goddamned song stuck in my head.
https://youtu.be/EmuBOfurv3o?si=vhy7yJgBZLyHGs_i
Figuring out all of the various and sundry Fedi plugins I can integrate with WordPress is AMAZING. I’m having a blast exploring the Fediverse. But I swear, if I get this drumbeat stuck in my brainhole ONE MORE TIME…
🎶Don’t say that you want me, heeeeyyy🎶
NO. I DO NOT WANT THIS SONG IN MY BRAIN AGAIN. PLEASEEEEEE…
-Lazarus
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#actuallyAuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #AssociativeMemory #AuDHD #catchySong #earworm #Fediverse #FleetwoodMac #internetExploration #Tusky #WhyAmILikeThis
Me:
/Commits to waking up earlier on the weekends
/Successfully stops needing an alarm to wake up earlier on weekends
/Is still grumpy about being awake this fucking early on a weekend
Anyway, I was too tired to workout yesterday, so lfg I guess
I hate that I can't watch any horror film involving the devil, or anything biblically based without that part of me popping up that fell down a Abrahamic religions research rabbit hole for a decade. Why can't I just enjoy it without pointing out what's not correct, etc? #WhyAmILikeThis
what does it actually mean to "hold space" ? '
i'll say that since i first started using the term, it's become a bit of a meme — sth that people like to say without really embodying the underlying dynamic '
today in @radio i transmitted (with @intrepidbodies @fujiiloh and @solarheartmind) an episode of #whyamilikethis ? 🔴❇️⬜️ ' on containment '
1/ '
“Ok so I’ve built a cache aware system of counters, epoch base concurrent reclamation, and an alignment-guaranteed vectorized min-match search.”
“What was the project again?”
“A skip list.”
“So you’ve done linked lists, search, insert, all that?”
“… no.”
If you were me and had bought some yarn two or three (or four?) years ago to knit into a pair of socks.... Where would you have put that yarn? Someplace smart, I bet. Someplace that makes sense. Somewhere you'd be able to find easily when you had your next vacation and wanted to bring a pair of socks to knit. *heavy sigh*
#knitting #sockknitting #yarn #wheresmyyarn #idlosemyhead #whyamilikethis
"Today I will start #dnd prep 2 hours before the session!"
Well, one of those hours flew by without so much as starting Obsidian -.-
#ttrpg #timeflies #whyamilikethis #sendhelp #thisisntnormalisit #why
I used to have a very large wall map - think roll-up classroom size - as a kid, hanging right over my bed.
It did nothing for my interest in geography.
Instead it occasionally bugs me that I can't remember whether it was Robinson or Winkel-Tripel projection.
(This is a completely normal thing to randomly worry about on a Wednesday evening in your late thirties.)
#TVAds #Jeep #TRex #WhyAmILikeThis
So, there's an ad on TV, well, streaming, for the line of jeep vehicles.
However, one part is "when T Rex is chasing you, you can bet it's a Jeep getting away," and it's the scene form Jurassic Park.
But we all know the vehicles in that move were Ford Explorers, right?
You know that feeling of intense anxiety before you do something mundane and normal, and after it all turns out (surprise surprise) mundane and normal, you think to yourself, "Oof, I'm a hot mess. Why am I like this?"?
Or just me?
Ich bin so ein Dork. Ich bin an der Arbeit. Wir haben viel viel viel zu tun. Wir haben vor 3 Wochen geschlossen, jetzt haben wir eine neue Karte und praktisch eine Neueröffnung. Ich koche Honig Sesam Pute auf. Sie explodiert auf mich! Nur ein bisschen, es war nich gefährlich. Es passiert.
Ich schaue es mir an. Ich merke es ist sehr schön. Also sage ich "Die Pute ist total BOMBEastich!" weil sie so explodiert ist.
Warum bin ich so?
#procook #whyamilikethis
My partner is new to mastodon. She said it seemed very male-dominated. I wanted to check this out, because I don't want to be one of those "I only follow dudes in my dudespace" people. In other words, this was me checking my own experience.
What I did:
1. Counted 200 (actually 208) posts in the 'federated' feed for c.im as they came through; tried to identify gender of all individuals posting, from usernames/pics (I know!) or chosen pronouns if that didn't seem glaringly obvious. This is in 'federated_feed'.
2. Did the same for 100 posts in my home feed (really just 99). For this and the previous item, individuals might be counted 2 or more times.
3. Tried to tally apparent gender for the accounts I follow (N=160).
'x' means a bot (e.g. The Guardian or Hourly Fops) or someone whose gender I wasn't confident I could guess at. Mostly it was bots.
Takeaways (right now):
1. There are a LOT of bots/newsfeeds/etc. in the big overall federated feed. My home feed has a much lower percentage of those.
2. Across the board there appears* to be a significant male bias in posts in the federated feed: 2.5 times more apparently-male than apparently-female posts (i.e., 150% bias? Am I doing this right?).
3. Both in the people I follow and the posts I saw (this specific day; IDK how representative that is), there is still a male bias, but it's much less extreme. Posts in my feed: 31% male-female bias; people I'm following: 27% bias.
There is probably a much easier and more representative way to do this, like by IDK using an API or scraping people's pronouns or something, but it was honestly faster for me to do it this way than learn the "simple" way.
* This is unlikely to be a truly representative sample of federated posts/accounts, but it's also probably not ridiculously far off; I suspect the trends would hold for larger/more representative samples.
#mastodon #gender #statistics #dataviz #ggplot #rstats #dataentry #whyAmILikeThis #GenderBias
the latest episode of #whyamilikethis ? ⬜️ ' 🔴🟩 ' to make it to @radio podcast can b found below —
https://buymeacoffee.com/thebroomradio/whyamilikethis-andromeda-cosmos '
in which we talk about how astrologers give names to celestial bodies and the karma that informs their perspectives '
— @nobuhojimichaan '
just channeled an episode of #whyamilikethis ? ' on sigils '
ama '
(aka y does @nobuhojimichaan use apostrophes for punctuation ? ') '
