I have been having a lot of weird, contradictory feelings about my body lately. I think I look good with clothes on, but because I've lost so much weight, with my clothes off things are kind of gross.
I'm happy with the amount of fat I have in total, but the way I'm carrying it doesn't look good. I want a hot dad gut, but my stomach is saggy and lumpy and wrinkly instead. My pubic fat pad and upper thighs are a disaster zone. My chest fat hanging off my pecs makes it look like I have four tits.
@aphyr I was so focused on your big arms I almost missed the dick print
@thickurt It's a big change, but after I got my hair cut short I realized I had forgotten how much easier short hair is to take care of. That definitely helped me with the transition. Plus, the way that I showed off my haircut was by pinning my chopped off ponytail into a hat and then removing it mid-conversation with people. That part was fun
@aphyr What if they're still having a great time in there without you
One year later and 60 lbs lighter. I've been staying mostly in a caloric deficit while lifting, and I'm excited to see how I'll look after eating at maintenance calories for a while
@aphyr When I was in high school, my math class was having a "work on homework for the rest of the period" time, so I was listening to an old timey MP3 player. I looked up and everyone in my class was staring at me because I didn't realize I was singing along to Christina Aguilera. I have spent the last twenty years in mortal fear of doing that again
@tombone How about urban (well, mostly rural I guess) fantasy? Pale is a web serial that recently finished that was excellent
I try not to take this stuff personally, but it feels really shitty that I've spent most of this Chicago trip sitting in my Airbnb getting ghosted by multiple people I had made plans with. Like, if they had at least had the courtesy to cancel on me I could have made other plans
@aphyr I'm feeling kind of 🥵 about your body
now that it has come to light that Luigi Mangione 100%ed FEZ i would like to officially take credit and say that my videogame made him do it
Today I am at "wearing a cutout of my own face with lipstick smeared on it"
I need to put a bunch of screenshots from The Substance on a board so I can point to the one that represents how I feel about myself for the day
@James Yes, especially as part of onboarding to a new project
@James A lot of the projects that I've worked on rely heavily on sequence diagrams on an internal wiki to document different parts of the project structure
@AuxilioAb I would also like to be feeling yourself
@James I'm like "I'm supposed to eat HOW MANY carbs???"
@thickurt high elevation, dry summers, lots of sun, warm days and cool nights in autumn? Those are basically the conditions in South Africa where this plant is from
