Lama dah aku dok ‘aim’ benda ni. Hari ni aku beli juga. Tapi kan, entah bila la aku nak pasang. Aku plan nak letak kat atas meja ‘office’. Kita tengok nanti.

Okay. Sementara charging ni kita boleh set telefon ni.

Ya. Sim card Maxis aku dah masuk dalam S24U. Sekali bateri dah habis. Kena charge dulu.

Samsung S24 Ultra.
Dah beberapa minggu lepas aku beli telefon ni. Masih lagi aku tak pindahkan SIM card masuk ke sini. Aku kena start guna. Kalau tak buat apa beli?

Kan?

Aku senang. Tidak ada apa yang menggusarkan aku. Semuanya baik-baik sahaja. Aku gembira kerana dapat menghabiskan masa bersama keluarga aku.

Lama juga aku tak tulis apa-apa di sini. Belum jadi habit aku sepenuhnya untuk menulis jurnal ini setiap hari. Aku yakin aku kena mula tulis jurnal dengan serius. Aku percaya dengan menulis jurnal ni aku boleh dapat ‘clarity’. Banyak yang bermain dalam ‘subconscious’ aku. Sampaikan kadang-kadang tu berulang-ulang dalam kepala dan benak aku.

Hari ni first day raya Aidilfitri. Tak ke mana-mana, just beraya di Kg Lindungan. Sempat solat raya. Ngam-ngam je sampai masjid terus takbir.

It’s already Feb 1st of 2024. I didn’t do well with my Productivity Journal that I use in Remarkable 2. I did missed a few days & really need to utilise it more. I bought it to help me manage & get things done. So, review & move forward.

I finally deleted her phone number. Yes. I took the jump. It’s not that I want ‘to burn 🔥 the bridge’. But, I was anxiously checking up WhatsApp messages & statuses from her. I didn’t even look, read or reply to any of those, so why do I look at the phone waiting for it.

I need clarity & checking my phone looking for her statuses just not helping me to clear the water. There’s this gut feeling in me that believe she won’t be same anymore.

No regrets!

Tadi dah urut kaki. Lepas berjalan cari kedai mamak, nak lepak-minum. Dah lenguh balik. Sudahnya lepak kedai mamak depan pintu masuk utama Plaza Low Yat.

Sementara dia orang ke konsert, aku ke kedai urut kaki. Lenguh dah kaki aku ni. Urutnya sedap. Kuat kena point tapi tak sakit. Mahal la sikit, RM80 sejam. Berbaloi.

Hari ni hari konsert di Megastars Arena Sg Wang Plaza princess aku. Apa entah nama band Korea tu. Suka sangat dia. Harga tiket? RM900+ untuk 2 seatings.

Aku tak rasa membazir. Aku nak dia orang happy. Sedikit pun aku tak rasa sesal beli tiket mahal-mahal.

Kalau aku boleh beli Samsung Z Fold 5, tak akan la aku tak boleh beli tiket konsert tu, ya tak.

I kept looking at WhatsApp & its status. I don’t reply to her messages & I don’t see her status updates. So, why?

What’s the best solution?

I’m thinking of deleting her number.

Do I really need to do it?

It is time to pop this!

This was supposed yesterday’s post.

Day 1 of using tarong. Aku rasa badan ada perubahan. Kurang mengantuk, kurang letih. Aku rasa lutut aku mula kurang rasa sakit. The best part aku rasa aku tak tidur langsung sebelah petang. Aku akan continue pakai tarong ni sampai 2 tahun.

Oh! Semalam rumah MC tak ada air. Main pump blow. So, sudahnya tidur hotel baru kat Tmn Medan PJ, Ibis PJCC PJ.

Pagi ni aku tengok sepintas lalu di WhatsApp status ada status update dia. Macam pic cartoon je.

Aku tak klik pun. Nak biar je. Aku tak nak klik. Messing with her mind.

Saw another WhatsApp status uploaded. By the glance without clicking it, it was her baby with the face covered by an emoji.

Did I clicked it? NO!

Let it be a question mark on her mind. Messing with her head.

Be cold.

Be cold.

Stay quiet. Be quiet.

Don’t show my emotion.

Buka IG. Nampak dia upload pics wed, honeymoon, pregnancy & baby.

Didn’t like or comment on it. Just browsing through.

Maybe that is the way she wanted me to know or maybe to show some response to her current condition.

I’m going to leave it as it is.

Cold.

Alhamdulillah today my tummy is getting better. Dah tak meragam macam 3 hari yang lepas.