So. I'm back. I am no longer majoring in computer science, and I found out a lot about myself.

I've been fearful about wasting my time with things I'm too anxious to do...but basically, I think I want to post my art on SM like here and others and I want to find a fresh new place to post my content. I want to have an online portfolio.

I sometimes get concerned because I want money from my art and just get money in general, but when art becomes a job, I become a perfectionist. Instagram is suspicious and oversaturated and other websites that are popular are unpleasant.

So, basically, I'll be posting here and potentially youtube. Hopefully people like my work. It's harc to find people that understand me and I just want to be clearer.

@ZebraFeatherAH We are almost twins except I'm fat, 5'11, not shaped like that, not that age, or look like that.

@Em0nM4stodon Tbh, I wish I could not go on social media anymore or go on the internet anymore, but then I feel like I'm not strong enough. I don't know anymore.

#Blackhistorymonth. October 16, 1995 - The Million Man March was organized by the leader of the Nation of Islam and joined by Black leaders of other faiths and organizations. The rally was a call for unity and revitalization of African American communities. "In the year after October 16, over 1.5 million Black men registered to vote for the first time.  There was also an upsurge in the number of black children adopted by African American families."(BlackPast) #Blackmastodon #Blackfediverse

@Jayne Hiya!

Some days I mourn my envitable, some days I just yearn...I'm not the person I thought I'd be when I was younger and I'll never be the person I want to be.

Some days I just want to wake up and be masculine appearing and have a boyfriend or a husband and be his boyfriend or husband. I don't think that's possible for me. Not where I am, not where I live, not where I'll be. I can't keep living like this, but to change would to be forever alone. In the body I have now, I wouldn't be so lonely.

Sometimes, I rather wither away. Sometimes, I know I'd be better gone.

I don't have spite, I don't live for spite. I just am here and alive. It's really something else. I'm tired. I don't understand anything or know anything. Sometimes art is the only thing I have to be myself because I don't think there's a me out there and if they are there, they're really unreal.

#Writing #MentalHealth #Transgender #BlackPerson #Stressed #Dysphoria

@proudnb How do you present visibly as nonbinary? Unless I dress a particular way or constantly tell people I'm nonbinary, they won't assume. Some of it is by race alone.

Happy Valentine's Day! #ValentinesDay

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@kamikat !!!

@TheTempleMom It's a beautiful cover.

@WanderingBeekeeper I don't exactly know how to type it yet, but I guess it would be soft fantasy. There are things in the story like fantastical creatures and something like cloning is referenced, but otherwise, it's just like slice of life or usually someone--a character--writing about a part of their life. I do a lot of worldbuilding, but after that, it's usually not some huge story. I don't know, I think I need to write it out and finish it.

@agatabednorz I have very sketchy art so I always appreciate it!

@marti @marti_abernathey
Unfortunately I don't have a stable income coming in where I can pay for this without losing it after a while. However, I'll definitely keep this in mind in the future. Thank you so much for sending and educating me about this.😁

@agatabednorz This is absolutely amazing! I love how sketchy it is! My favorite image is the cat. 😊

@DieWespe @liztai @JillsJoy @Rozzychan @Olaf
Oh, I see. Well, I'll consider it.