Crosspost:
I wrote a post about making safety plans with trans youth. The transphobes came out in mass to send me horrifically detailed death threats.
Yeah, it induced panic/fear.
But then I noticed how they're all unoriginal and repetitive.
They kept repeating things like: "You'll never be a woman."
I was assigned female at birth. Society often views me as a woman whether I like it or not. I've never been a man, not even in society's view.
I'm nonbinary, but that is too advanced for them I guess. They can't even imagine me.
This is a pattern I've noticed from years of getting death threats. Whenever I am too outspoken, or if my organizing gets picked up by a local paper and I'm interviewed, or if some well-known person boosts me, I get deluged with death threats, and they're always the same. Sometimes verbatim.
I get it. The right-wing wants me and those like me dead. In my state, they made that clear by stripping me and other trans folks of our rights.
But holy shit are they uneducated on this topic. Their hate has turned them into screaming sludge mortars that hurl their bile everywhere.
To them, every trans person is a trans woman. Trans men don't exist to them. Nonbinary people are beyond their ability to imagine. The fact many cultures throughout history had multiple genders might explode their brains.
They're a cult of unoriginal, repetitive people, who lost their imagination.
They've turned hating trans people into a religion. They've married it to Evangelical Christianity, to the point that it's practically their idol. (Irony, since Christianity specifically says to NOT put an idol before God, but well, evangelicals put money and hating others before God constantly.)
So what I learned from years of getting death threats is that no matter how terrifying it is to get these threats, no matter how graphic they become (and holy hell are they graphic at times), there is two things I have that they don't.
I have an imagination and I have a heart.
I can imagine a present/future full of people with many diverse genders, sexual orientations, skin colors, (dis)abilities, cultures, and ethnicities. A pluralistic world, where many worlds exist in tandem.
A world full of adventure, love, hope, justice, and equitable ways of living and thriving.
I have a heart bent toward justice and love. For Love is an action. It requires us to listen to others, to accept a person where they are, but at the same time be willing to hold them accountable when needed. To listen to our own needs. To be willing to hold ourselves accountable. That's all love.
Hate sucks all that from us; hate is a black hole that hungers for more pain, more hate, in an never-ending search that will always end in an empty void.
It's far more fulfilling, far more joyful, far more healing to give people compliments. To share hope with someone. To listen to their stories and uplift them. To share validation. To work together collectively toward a better, more just, more equitable, more loving future.
Sure, the bigots try to steal all that from me and folks like me. They terrorize to colonize our very minds.
As long as we continue to create, continue to exercise our imagination, continue to make art, to write, to sing, to dance, to organize, the bigots will never win.
Resilience comes from our heart's desire for hope and justice. It comes from finding joy even when the world screams at us to 'just die already.'
I've survived several near-death experiences (fall off 500 foot bluff, drowning, crash, etc.). Death and I have been dancing around each other for years.
So no, transphobes. I will not "just die already." Death isn't done dancing with me. Plus I have more stories and art to create, to work with others to build that better future.
This resolve may not cure my nightmares or panic attacks.
But it's a reminder that they can't steal my joy or hope.
Here's my reminder to anyone who reads this thread.
No matter how terrifying the bigots and fascists are, no matter how much destruction they wrought, they can't steal our imagination or heart.
We imagine and will build up better than before. We care for one another. So go and create joyfully.