@ojwh @carnage4life hmmm optimistic

In 1995, Jeff Bezos's parents, Jackie and Mike Bezos, invested $245,573 in Amazon.com, which was a loan to help Bezos start his online bookstore.

Entrepreneurship is a carnival game.

@Lee6 impressive willpower! I need to start a cutting phase too 😬

@pippa I can’t recall ever hearing that word 🤔

@roknrol happy birthday!

@CiaraNi is that Bath?

@CiaraNi that sounds blissful

@Lee6 I’ve made a start by not going to church. I’m peopled out and need an introvert day.

@Lee6 thanks Lee ☺️

My mantra for today is that I’m not going to do anything that I don’t want to. We should get at least one day a week where we can live like that, right?

Shame about the appalling ‘fearless motivation’ background music, but if you can get past that, Tim Minchin’s 9 life lessons are goodies.
https://www.facebook.com/share/v/1DX5KtjvPt/?mibextid=wwXIfr

Did anyone ever establish whether or not Annie was in fact, ok?
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=h_D3VFfhvs4

The current cultural drive towards #nonmonogamy feels to me like gay conversion therapy. I feel somehow inadequate, defective and inferior by not wanting it, and under pressure to convert.
#sex #monogamy #relationships

@becha this is perfect ♥️

ANTI-CAPITALIST AFFIRMATIONS

- i deserve to spend time doing things that make me feel good and whole.

- i am capable of listening to my body and responding to what it needs.

- it's okay if i no longer have ambitions for a career.

- i am worth so much more than what i produce for the consumption of others.

- it's okay to redefine what a successful life looks like for me.

- i am allowed to enjoy things simply because they bring me joy.

- spending time doing something I love is enough

4/. Is it just anxious attachment me or am I just accurately perceptive?

I suppose I have trust issues with C because she lied about when her husband ditched her, when we first met. She told me they’d been separated for months when it had in fact been just days.

I’m also cognisant of the fact that she had an affair while engaged to a guy, albeit a long time ago.

3/ I asked her if she is #bisexual which led her on to telling me a story about how she had sex with another girl when she was 17. She said her and her boyfriend ended up in bed with another couple. After having sex with her bf, she got into it with the other girl to please the boys. She said that recounting the story made her feel icky and that she really felt exploited by the experience. Anxious attachment me feels as though she’s reframing the story for my benefit.

2/ This inevitably led to another challenging conversation with C about our attitudes to group sex. She finds it really difficult to understand why I wouldn’t want another woman in bed with us. I explained again that it’s because I have an #anxiousattachment style and that I’d be terrified of her being more into the other woman than me - and that I’d ultimately lose her.

I also explained that her bringing it up again makes me think that she really wants and needs that sex life.

1/ Watched more #openhouse with C again last night (series 3 episodes 1 and 2). It’s common that only one of the partners in the relationship really wants to be there - and the other is going along with it to people please, and out of fear of losing the other one.

I think the reasons and motivations for going into #polyamory / open relationships / group #sex are complex - there’s a lot more to it than for example a bloke just thinking that 2 girls at a time would be fun.
#channel4

As the next #familycourt hearing looms, I’ve just received the latest report from Cafcass. It makes for very sad reading. My ex wife has royally f*cked up our two kids with her campaign of alienation. They’re both in need of psychological help. The good news is that the advisor is recommending the kids live with me half of the time. The bad news is that I don’t see how that will work when my ex-wife’s rampant toxic behaviour continues unabated.