MSC opens new rail-barge terminal in Paris http://dlvr.it/TLGQtH #Intermodal #Medlog #MEDLOGInlandTerminalParisBruyères #MSC

‘MSC entry into Ukraine is historic, but setbacks loom’ http://dlvr.it/TKzt3K #Intermodal #Lviv #Medlog #Mostyska

On new meds for three weeks, and I’m happy to say I’m no longer feeling what I didn’t recognise was depression, I’m now just ridiculously anxious. #MedLog

Okay, changing meds again, desperately need to be able to function for the next while. #MedLog

tfw you’re leaving for the psychi appointment you’ve been fangin’ for for weeks comes along and you find an email about it potentially being cancelled if it’s not pre-paid #MedLog

tfw you take your meds and then stare at your phone for over a minute looking at the medication logging interface wondering what you’re meant to be doing there #MedLog

Third day off meds, and I only got a small headache, rather than the debilitating ones I had in the week or so prior to stopping them. I so do love these #ADHD #Superpowers! #MedLog

Started with one two years ago, then two, then a different second, and after months of titration I’m comfortable with the third on its own. Still not ideal, always the hope that a different drug would be perfect, but I’m finally starting to get done things I’ve tried to do for decades. #ADHD #MedLog

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Today the first day in months, likely more than half a year, that I’ve managed to work without a pair/body double for more than half an hour or so. Had an hour long meeting at 0800, and I kept working until ~1100, paired again after lunch. I’m quite emotional, and utterly exhausted. #MedLog

Dosage seems to be working for now. I currently feel like I can get things done, but pairing is necessary to get me past feeling like to actually getting things done. Building a village is hard. #MedLog

@LillyHerself Thank you. When I get the capacity to do so I plan on badgering my pollies to implement a UBI.

Body doubling/pairing is a technique where we ADHD folks trick ourselves into getting stuff done because there’s someone else there. For some folks the mere presence works, for me I need that presence to be responsive. I used to pay for a service where I’d join video sessions with several other people and we’d all do stuff, but those stopped working for me and now I’m relying on a group of friends and family but they’re not always available.

#MedLog

@sendai Just read through your #MedLog posts and very sorry to hear you've been having such a hard time. Hoping things clear up and improve real soon, so you can start to enjoy yourself more again. Because you're worth it!

PS, what is body doubling??

Broke down and cried on the phone while asking someone if they have time to do some body doubling. Med review a fortnight ago helped for a week or so, still trying to work out if it’s a dosage issue, but I’ve spent the past three days trying to break out of executive dysfunction. #MedLog

@JessTheUnstill @skinnylatte *holds eir hand up* 🙋🏽

Between having to stay inside due to bushfire smoke, having to be hyperaware of them being ~10km north, south, and east, pandemic, lockdowns, border closures, “business as usual” attitudes, the worst flooding this region has experienced in recorded history, and then interest rate increases, I lost the majority of my coping mechanisms and work.

I managed to get diagnosed shortly after most of the above, but a mixture of anxiety medication emotional flattening and ADHD executive dysfunction caused me to not fear homelessness. I went through months of thinking “if I don’t do these things I’ll be homeless”, not being able to do anything about it and unsurprisingly becoming homeless, before I managed to break out of the worst of the executive dysfunction.

My situation is now considerably worse than it was, but I feel so much better as that I’ve been able to start working on it all again (especially since a med review a fortnight or so ago: #MedLog).

Third day. Yesterday was decent, but while I prepared for the scheduled power outage, it caused hardware failure to a non-UPS backed device that I then had to diagnose and fix, couldn’t regain focus after.

I pondered staying at the same dose, but my to-do list is ridiculously long, so today I increased the second daily dose. Hoping I manage to maintain the ability to focus throughout the working day.

#MedLog

Second working day on new meds. Started them Friday which led to a weekend of domestic productivity. Kitchen tidy for the first time in months, I’ve cleaned what I’ve needed to to be able to cook and eat, but now it’s tidy. Still having issues finding the focus for any sort of economic productivity.

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