Does anyone else check their C.V.s and question how this capable and talented individual could be themselves?
It's not lies. I did all of that, even if the memories lost their brightness in the C-19 fog from which I'm finally departing. It's just that I don't see myself with the clarity of that printed page, and I have this irrational terror that I'll be arrested and jailed for misleading potential employers.
Which I'm not, but it's terrifying nonetheless.
I hate this sense of inadequacy, which I acknowledge is sad and inaccurate. I have creators thrilled to work with me again, and I smile when I remember they're out there.
Why am I not giddy? Why am I doubting myself? Why do I think I'll go to résumé jail?