Sometimes I think #death isn't #inevitable, but more of a goal. A finish line if you will. #Suicide is cheating. Yet, trying to be there as fast as possible isn't always a bad thing.

#winner #loser #finishline #odd #dark #abstract #thoughts

I feel like such a #failure in life. It's hard to feel like a #man when you're #struggling to make ends meet for your family and keep coming up short.
As a man I have 1 job, to provide for my #family. And I'm barely making it on my own. Often times need little help to make it by.

I suppose there is always that one day. The one day you realize something even though it has been going on for some time.
Today, I think is that day for me. I think my #marriage is probably over.
I don't know if that will actually lead to divorce or if we will just continue with the way things have been. Yet, the "marriage" is dead or at least surviving by life support machine only. Not living on its own.
I feel like shit. I have a numb feeling and not sure what to do....
#relationships #itsover