"And all the secret were shared! / Not knowin' what not to share..."
I wrote "Clay Heads and Cloud Brains" as a reflection on how easily we surrendered our privacy and critical thinking to the "strong fort" of technology. A lament for the clay heads we are becoming while our brains live in the server farms.
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Coffee does absolutely nothing to me.
I can drink 10 mugs of very strong coffee and feel... nothing. No boost, no jitters, no crash.
I track my heart rate and blood pressure carefully - no changes there either.
I've even heard this isn't that rare, which honestly surprised me.
What's even more curious: my wife reacts to coffee the exact same way 😅
Bodies are weird.
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I'm starting to feel like those of us over 40 who grew up using our brains instead of LLMs to figure shit out are some kind of intellectual titans, and we'll be looking for the rest of our lives in dismay and incredulity at young people who can't fathom things like a "card catalog" or "reading a book to learn how to do something."
I also worry we will be titans who get laughed at for going slow and refusing to fully use the tools available, mocked for our paranoid-sounding rants about the environment and labor rights, and also possibly unemployed.
its unfortunate that I will not live in a time without social media. Maybe some people reading this will know what that's like. I wish that I could stay in the "social loop" without having to scroll. All of this scrolling must not be good, and I am trying to find a way to manage this technology effectively. I want to take back control over my emotions and my time
I LOVE...
How Do We Relationship (付き合ってあげてもいいかな) (Tsukiatte Agetemo Ii Kana) ("Maybe I'll go on a date with you.")
More thoughts forthcoming... but this is a delightful manga that I had to stop reading and squealing about (actually in real life, yeesh) to post somewhere about. I'm almost done with it so I'm dreading that, but it's so... nice.
I suppose it's romance but more and more when I read it that just seems like 'coming of age' for the college years. Which may or may not be interesting to someone. Also if the cover is not obvious, it's about women loving women, or yuri. The main characters are the two girls on the cover but it covers a lot of other relationships of various sexualities and situations... shituationships even. And its very heartwrenching and heartwarming.
It's heartmaxing I guess.
Something about the characters makes them so real... I have to work through why, but they've worked their way into my heart in a way I haven't experienced in manga for a while. I care for them like real people, I'm worried for their mental health. I hope they can get over, hope they can figure it out? When they're hurt, I feel it. Something like that.
Maybe because for a while, despite myself, I've been caught up in fantasy, sci fi, or action type stories, where the stakes always have life on the line? So maybe this change of pace is something I really needed.
I digress. But I'm fighting insomnia and waiting for my sleepy tea to kick in.
I had been waiting for a while to post about this manga. In this moment, I feel like I might just stop reading it for a while to linger on the chapter I just finished haha... the final volume is not released in English yet (though it is available through serialized chapters on Viz's platform) so it's not the end of the world... but I'll probably get hungry for knowledge of 'what happens next' soon. For now I'm in that liminal space of what happened, being the only thing that is happening... until I turn the next page.
Anyway I hope some more people check out this manga :)
Edit: this turned out to be quite a cringe post but it's appropriate.
And somewhere in this spiral, I suddenly remembered the "Dead Internet Theory." It's a conspiratorial idea, sure - but it doesn’t feel entirely disconnected from what we see today: an internet that looks full, but somehow feels hollow.
YouTube even pushed it further with the "notification bell" - a "subscription to your subscription". It’s absurd. If I subscribed, I should already be informed. Shouldn't I?
And somewhere inside all of this, I feel completely alone - surrounded by billions of people on so-called “social” networks.
If I removed all my subscriptions across all platforms, I bet my feed wouldn't even change.
That's how little any of this is about people anymore.
It's unsettling. And honestly, a bit terrifying.
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You blink, and your entire feed reshuffles. You get distracted for 30 seconds, and the app force-feeds you a completely new reality, with no way to return to where you were. And that isn't an accident. It's an intention.
Even basic concepts were redefined. "Subscription" used to mean I follow someone because I want to see their content.
Now it means nothing. There's no guarantee I'll ever see a post from a creator I'm allegedly subscribed to.
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Forums are gone. Real blogs barely survive. DC hubs died ages ago. "Conversation" has been replaced by messengers - and even that doesn't feel like conversation anymore.
The web feels empty, despite billions of "active users" (or bots). These platforms seem engineered to keep you scrolling, procrastinating, and watching ads - not actually connecting with anyone.
Try to find a single post or video from Instagram or Facebook that you once stumbled upon. You can't. There's no real search. Everything is randomized, disposable.
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More and more I feel this heavy nostalgia for the old internet. The open web. IRC. Jabber. DC hubs (anyone still remember StrongDC++ or PtokaX?). Private forums. Local networks. Small communities where things felt alive and intentional.
I keep wondering whether this is some kind of crisis, or if my mind is simply failing to adjust to today's internet - an internet driven entirely by algorithms, where the value of information evaporates instantly, and attention is the only real currency left.
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Lately I keep hearing people talk about "midlife crises," as if they're inevitable checkpoints.
I’m 30 now, and I honestly can’t tell whether I'm going through some kind of crisis myself - or if this is just me trying to adapt to a new reality that changed too fast.
More and more I feel this heavy nostalgia for the old internet. The open web. IRC. Jabber. DC hubs (anyone still remember StrongDC++ or PtokaX?). Private forums. Local networks. Small communities where things felt alive and intentional.
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