born im march

#Villanelle

what if underneath watching and reading and writing about lesbians, I am seeking a hidden desire, or unearthing it, maybe? or not!

why is life a circle? why do we live the same things over and over again? why do a soundtrack and a tv show that found you in your loneliness moment in a corner of a dorm room 7 years ago find you back in a lonely moment in a corner of the room in the suburbs? looks like the only thing that's changed is the shape of the rooms. The rooms are lonely, restless, helpless, dark, sick, tired...

that weird feeling of hope :)

P!nk's True Love, Adele's Rolling in the Deep, and I remember there was also Miley Cyrus's Wrecking Ball! -A gave them to me exactly 10 years ago. They were the closing songs of Last Chapter in Home?land. 2013 was a turning point that defined the rest of my life. Another chapter is about to end and I feel it with every fiber of my being. It terrifies me but the nature of the fear is different this time.

to be or not to be is just the tip of the iceberg.

One sign you have changed for good: While watching Turkish Rom Coms (and they are very different from American rom coms when it comes to rom stuff), your heart doesn't melt for the impossible love story anymore but rather you focus on strong characters with an insatiable hunger for power 😎

#Turkish #series make me dream, fly, and move out of my skin. I want to fall in love, walk in #Autumn weather, in the rain.

I'm tired, I wanna die, I miss my mom. What happens to her if I die? Has she ever thought about sucide too? Has she ever wanted to die too? She never showed anything, any emotion, any affection ,any compassion. Why did she always have to be the strictest mom?

#city #citylights #streetphotography #streetlights #rainynights #rain #reflection #saulleiter

The 'L' name is becoming a nightmare

I tried so hard to resolve that rage against him and I awarded myself by letting back him into my life and hate him him again. well don!

#lights #licht #nightlights #nightstroll #nightlife #EuroNight

I just wrote my first blog post 🤩
#REdiscovering #Woody #Allen or ME?

https://cafeculture4.wordpress.com/2023/02/24/rediscovering-woody-allen-or-me/

#challenging myself to a #duel. The shivering, anxious me against the badass me. while the first's weapon is paralyzing anxiety in my body, the latter's weapon is reading and writing. Bring it on bitch!

#anxiety is wearing my body away. it feels like a smooth electric shock and I cannot stop it. #help

All signs and synchronicities are telling me it's gonna be ok but when? I feel helpless!

I am expecting miracles but where are they?

reclaim your power