Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiros

If you're expecting raw talent and skill, perhaps craving something new and exciting, then let me tell you, you've come to the wrong place. That's right. It's going to be mediocre at best, and quite painful at worst. Why you've chosen to come here, I have no idea. But you've probably made a mistake. Don't read anything I post. It's best for the both of us that I not be perceived.

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Aria DesiresGankra@toot.cat
2024-12-06

using LaTeX is easy, all you need to know is that when Donald Knuth failed the Mark of Mastery Exam and lost his ability to wield a keyblade, his heart manifested that power into a new person: Tela Type

Tela had the power to wield the Fountain Keypen, which was mightier than any Keyblade.

However when Tela's best friend Roxe was consumed by darkness (creating the nobody Xerox and the heartless Bell), Tela fell into despair and lost her heart too, creating the nobody LaTeX and the heartless Metafont.

You first meet Metafont in *Kingdom Hearts e-ε: ligature drop descender*, although they aren't that important.

LaTeX first appears in *Kingdom Hearts π-ε : hbox overfull*, although at that point they're called TeX.

They only become LaTeX in *Kingdom Hearts Literate:coded* where they merge with their digital replica in a simulation of TAOCP and discover the χ-macro that was hidden inside themselves by king Mickey.

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiros boosted:
2024-12-04

Overheard my partner talking about this online academic testing platform that requires students to have their webcam turned on during assessments. Said platform kicked out a student for not looking towards the camera, turns out they're blind and using a screen reader. 🤷‍♂️

#Accessibility #A11y #Fail

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Jeremy 🇨🇦thatgeoguy@coales.co
2024-12-04

@puzzled as I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I take a look at emacs and realize there's no tooltips left.

Cause I been hacking and smashing so long, that, even my LSP thinks that my mind is gone

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiroslofenyy@social.linux.pizza
2024-11-29

I suppose I've never been allowed to celebrate my achievements, and I get put down with absolutely no valid reason.

I used to get harassed for being a "faggot" in school, and now my dad recently called me a worthless cunt.

The only time my achievements were ever recognized were by schools, by granting me academic awards.

These awards were never recognized or celebrated by my parents. In fact, my parents quite frequently treated me as though I was, and I'm using their own words here, retarded. Often going so far as to calling me names when I wasn't academically perfect, even when I was between the ages of five and ten.

When I got older, I learned how to take a punch. Both literally and metaphorically.

I guess at this point, I've just internalized all of it. I have such severe learned helplessness and such severe depression that my psychiatrist is literally considering putting me on disability.

Again, I'm a high achiever... well I was one once.

I guess at this point, I'm debating as to whether I should just lie down and die.

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiroslofenyy@social.linux.pizza
2024-11-29

My depression must be creeping back on me.

I've lost the motivation to do nearly everything I once enjoyed. I figure my #selfesteem is being crushed. I've always been mediocre at everything except #mathematics and #programming.

I barely remember anything beyond the limit definition of a derivative, and I'm getting older every minute. I'm soon to be twenty seven and I struggle to program like I used to be able to.

I just don't carry the desire to do it anymore, and I'm mediocre now at #math and programming compared to my peers, it seems.

At least, that's how I feel. I sometimes have to remind myself that the majority of students here have never studied #calculus, and even fewer know how to program at all.

Yet, while I agree sure, I know some calculus still, I feel like programming has never been easier, or more mainstream.

I've never been special or important, and now all the things I've had going for me, I feel like I pale in, compared to peers of a similar age.

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiros boosted:
2024-11-29
Dwarf Fortress Bug: new exercise mechanics unintentionally allow river trout to get super buff when swimming against the tide, to the point that they can now walk on land and beat anything they see up.
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Jeremy 🇨🇦thatgeoguy@coales.co
2024-11-28

Anybody need their robot calibrated? #biketooter

My cargo bike (urban arrow shorty) carrying a ChArUco board.
Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiroslofenyy@social.linux.pizza
2024-11-24

Hey everyone, I've logged back in. I guess Mastodon felt pretty dead and boring when I left. Most especially, it felt very impersonal.

I miss feeling like the people I've chatted with on here were my friends, and I guess I'm kinda worried I wont get to feel that again.

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thomas yager-maddentym@tilde.zone
2024-11-24

ok so this morning my stupid positive affirmations app wants me to be all “i lOvE My bOdY BeCaUsE It aLlOwS Me tO ExPeRiEnCe tHe wOrLd aRoUnD Me” and I’m like No you dumbass that’s like my only real problem with it

#schizoid

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100% TAX ✅ ✅shoppingtonz
2024-11-24

@lofenyy

Thanks for this message of positivity, creativity and the spirit for collaboration.

After this post did you get the opportunity to collaborate with any PeerTubeFriends?

, , , , ,

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiroslofenyy@social.linux.pizza
2024-11-24

@shoppingtonz Sadly, no one took me up on the offer.

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2024-11-19

Captcha for Dev's

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiroslofenyy@social.linux.pizza
2024-11-09

So, I finally got a mobile app to the "good enough to consider publishing" stage.

There's only one problem. I can't decide whether or not I actually want to publish it.

Most of the reason why I wont just publish it is because doing so takes effort, and one needs a specific motivator to do so.

I'm a #freesoftware advocate, so, why don't I do it for that reason alone?

Because I'm jaded.

I know no one in my real life who cares in the slightest about *gestures vaguely* much of anything. I live in an anti-intellectual and anti-academic culture, here in #Alberta. You can't expect anyone to care about anything beyond the changes at the local Tim Horton's.

BTW, for those who are following along, I no longer live in #Calgary, I live in #Strathmore now... people are much friendlier, but the culture is so much more old-school conservative.

And then there's the free software/libre culture movement online.

We're so small, you'd think we were dead. The folks on Reddit worship the fungus between Richard Stallman's toes. No one cares about the movement, only the guy who started it.

Lots of folks either lack social skills or are just plain jerks, or don't really talk at all.

I guess what it boils down to, is that I have no like-minded friends, and that makes it really hard to want to actually share my software, especially if it's going to lead to some random guy on my Codeberg repo, telling me that I'm an idiot and must implement his out-of-scope feature or he's gunna harass me and my family...

For the love of libre culture, how do I keep my sanity??

A screenshot of my app.
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2024-11-08

RCMP national security unit monitored 'threats' linked to Wet'suwet'en anti-pipeline activism, records show
An RCMP national security unit monitored First Nations-led anti-pipeline activism for “potential threats” to the the energy, transportation and banking sectors between 2021 and 2022, according to classified and unclassified internal police reports.
cbc.ca/news/indigenous/rcmp-cr

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiros boosted:
CatSalad🐈🥗 (D.Burch) :blobcatrainbow:catsalad@infosec.exchange
2024-11-04

Ship of Theseus Trolley Problem

If you do not pull the lever, one person will be crushed to death instantly. If you do pull the lever, the trolley will divert onto a thousand-mile stretch of track with one person tied down at the end of it. If as the trolley rolls down this thousand-mile track, a crew systematicaly switches out every piece of the original trolley with a replacement part, did the trolley which you diverted kill the man?

Trolley problem illustration, but with a thousand mile gap between one of the lanes and text from the post.
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2024-10-29

More people relying on the #calgary Food Bank than ever before, according to new data
In 2024, total annual visits to the #calgary Food Bank were up by 28 per cent from the year prior, as the organization says it continues to see a rise in the number of people needing food support.
cbc.ca/news/canada/calgary/cal

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiros boosted:
2024-10-29

Dario recently forced me to create an account to continue using a blood sugar monitor I already own (😡), so of course I gave my name as "Fuck Off."

This turns out to have been an amazing decision, because they inject your name into their marketing emails. 😂

A screenshot of an email with the subject line "Fuck, there’s a smart blood pressure monitor in town!"
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Jeremy 🇨🇦thatgeoguy@coales.co
2024-10-25

Bringing my #Brompton everywhere with me #BikeTooter #cycling

Ryan "lofenyy" Medeiros boosted:
2024-10-25

#Canadian #meme but true for the US and others. #education #irony

Social media post: I love how basically every study says that students do better in school with less homework & later start times, and workers do better with more vacation days & shorter shifts, but we do the opposite in this godforsaken country because Puritanical feelings apparently beat facts.
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Jason, Human, Average :sdf:jhoward@social.sdf.org
2024-10-25

#linustorvald had some particularly fun comments with respect to #russia #linux kernel maintainers. While I'm sure the individual maintainers are reasonable people (at least as far as kernel maintainers go), removing an avenue for Russia to inject nefarious kernel code (by way of force on these maintainers) is a net positive. I hate that we have to do such things, but it's the reality of where we are.

phoronix.com/news/Linus-Torval

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