I have been struggling with a sinus/chest cold for over a week, which has left me exhausted and struggling to manage my breath. We've cancelled most of our work this week, but I had one little meeting I didn't want to bump. Just 30 minutes, what could go wrong. I arrive at their office and the receptionist wants to know who I'm here for, and what my name is.
I hadn't mentally prepared myself for this. I had been trying to clear my chest instead of my mind. Suddenly I'm 10 years old all over again, I'm stammering badly and my face is contorting around the moment. My breath is locked and in that moment I want to not exist anymore. I just have to get out four syllables, but I cannot. I'm a fully grown adult who has been self-employed for over 25 years and I'm pretty smart at some things and even managed to learn adult skills like reheating pasta sauce. But I cannot say my name to this stranger.
She was cool about it. She kept smiling. That does not always happen though. A lot of people think you're either a nutter or a pervert and they recoil and just get out of there. She didn't comment, she just waited for the name she needed. That was a huge relief.
2/3 #BadDays