I'm stuck in an unbrakeable loop :(
I'm an asshole, always have been. I used to manage to win people over by the tech-related things I can do. I recognize this #housemd kind of behavior and I hate it.
I work on myself, but the more I'm stressed, the more toxic I get. And now people can't like me for the things I do, because I have no energy to do shit, and they can't like me for the things I am. And without the support from other people, I don't have the energy to fix any of that.
Bummer :(