I am wrestling with the fact that yesterday, during a race, I was one of those assholes that elbowed himself ahead of competitors. It was because of the track, the crowd, unforeseen obstacles, but still I hate myself for it. Others were rightfully angry, but I can't apologize to them, as I will never be able to find them. Sometimes I am deeply uncomfortable with the human condition, but maybe that's how it's supposed to be. #slightly #depressed #overthinking

