when you think you have a right to choose your work life balance but have to still get approval for that, be kind and grateful when you do get that approval. every aspect of life matters or it shouldn't be part of life. #thanknotes #selfnote

been a while since i wrote these.
I thank my project team of absolute wonderful team members, people who have honestly pointed out all they could appreciate and all that they want to in the near future. And I also thank so many of the open source tools and libraries that have helped me produce such a lot of work entirely independently which I have never had the confidence to venture and try to accomplish. #thanknotes

I am thankful to the barista for their custom unique preparation with white chocolate and caramel that was so very perfectly yum. #thanknotes

Today I am thankful to
1. my project team where in even though I have the full autonomy and responsibility of the code, they are understnading and accommodating of the delays I have been facing with some unforeseen challenges and making sure of the best way for me to make progress that can be measured and presented.
2. GMaps, GPS, my phone with < 20% battery which helped me get back from losing my way in my own town, because that's how less I get out of the house and I got toally misdirected with new roads where I didn't expect. The podcasts kept me engaged though...almost. Was getting hungry for dinner.
3. I had the opportunity myself to receive some thanks for helping someone just point their efforts at the right place. Trivial for me, but good to know someone got unbllocked.
#thanknotes

re-starting blogging is the new lose weight of new year resolution and thought i would write a post. yeah, when i already have so many characters to type here for people to read in narrow columns, that they can't easily swipe and skip...or they just block me for long post...well i wander.
well, turns out the only habit i have of writing blogs is from the time i was at the age to find it important to vent out and no one vents out about positive things. that's more a bummer at the point i am, where i hoped to express some positivity. but what about vent of the pent? screams my past self....and wrote a nice snarky draft in a local text file. didn't post though. was too sleepy to do the edits and corrections etc. and to judge if it would be defensible or not.
So I tapped in this compose box and just had a thought that maybe I will write some good stuff. It's not like I am not thankful to a lot of people for a lot of things but it reminds me negatively of how perhaps I have not been doing my part of making someone's day to be the reason for some people to have a better day than they expected. Is that selfish? If not specifically awaiting any validation? Sometimes the reactions are just instant and lesser the positive feedback is expected the greater the positive impact of that feedback.
Come to think of it, my post on venting out was about people who took less than no effort to accomplish some task or fix some issues that are subjectively very trivial for me. Perhaps it's the trivial nature in my perspective that I let obstruct my empathy for those people. To me, then, helping them out with the least effort feels sadly "ugh, can't bother this much also" instead of "they are happy that their task got done or that their issue got resolved, even though it wasn't something I feel I did huge to deserve such a big smile or peace in general"
I am glad and extremely thankful that in my view they went out of their way, put in a lot of efforts and made some of the best dishes I could savor, relish and devour. Perhaps, it is to them, not that insurmountable as it would appear to me, but that they are just as passionate as I am about doing what I can do best and make it look effortless.
I thank them profusely and I am lucky I can help where I can and get second helpings when I can.
Glad I didn't post the draft but I let a day pass by and think of much better things to write and still not write in depth or detail.
#thanknotes