Author, Blogger, YouTuber, Indie Game Dev. ADHDer for life
@broadwaybabyto I know how you feel. I honestly like I've been boxed in to being an advocate.
Don't get me wrong, I don't hate being an advocate. But I wish we were allowed to be ourselves and do what we love without people constantly pushing us in a direction.
Disability advocacy, especially when confined to social media, can wear you down. It can make you want to quit.
I really want to quit right now.
In the last week:
I’ve been told I’m wasting my life
I’m not doing enough advocacy
I’m pushing an agenda & want folks to suffer
I’m a paid shill
Been used as “bait” by a huge influence.
I don’t say any of this for sympathy, but rather to highlight how incredibly hard it is to be a disabled woman on social media trying to advocate for change. You get hate from all sides. You’re constantly trapped in a catch 22.
The person who said I was wasting my life felt my writing talent could be better spent on anything but disability. They felt it was pathetic this is how I choose to spend my days The other person felt I’m not doing “enough” That advocacy isn’t real if you’re not in the streets
The accusations of “agenda pushing” came from people upset that I’m critical of assisted dying policies. They said my sources aren’t credible enough. I want people to suffer. I’m trying to take away their rights. Every one of them ignored the fact I’ve had death pushed at me
I asked each one whether they consider me credible. I want to believe I’ve built a reputation within the community as someone who fights for disabled lives and can be trusted. I have no reason to lie. I’m not religiously opposed to assisted dying.
I’m opposed to it being offered in lieu of care I’m angry it was pushed on me for a treatable condition by a doctor who treated me as worthless I’ve even angrier that no one believes me because they can’t see past their own desire to have the right to die when their time comes
Paid shill or pharma shill is something almost all of us hear on a regular basis. It’s absurd, but that doesn’t stop people from throwing the accusation around. I don’t have a blue tick. My website is completely free. I don’t make a cent off this. I wish I did!
Believe it or not some of us do this because we want to save lives. We do it because we’ve suffered at the hands of an ableist and eugenicist system and we want to prevent others from a similar fate. That’s it. That’s our whole “agenda”. We just want to help.
As for being used as “bait”, a huge supposedly “leftist” account took a screenshot I wrote about masks and posted it here to try and hate farm for engagement. It worked. He had nearly 300k views. He IS a blue tick, so he will have made money off my content.
What’s worse, it encouraged people to go to the other place just to harasss me. Hundreds of accounts, most of them with very misogynistic undertones, filled my timeline for three days with threats, insults and hate. I’m exhausted.
I didn’t consent to that. I didn’t have the energy for that. I know that’s the risk we all take when on social media, but when it happens from someone who’s making a living as a “leftist influencer” it really friggin sucks.
That’s all to say this last week has been a painful reminder of what we all know to be true… there’s no solidarity with disabled people. Left or right, it doesn’t matter. We are firmly “othered”. Seen as less than. Never good enough.
It doesn’t matter how hard we try and convince them otherwise. They won’t be convinced. Because eugenics and internalized ableism are incredibly hard to beat. People don’t want their world view shattered. They don’t want to believe they’re the same as us.
If you made it this far, please remember that the person behind the avatar is just that… a person. They’re not a “brand”. They’re not bulletproof just because they have a following. They will be hurt by things you say and do.
We have to have each other’s backs. Say what you will about the right, they’re united. They stick together in their hate. We have to stop cutting each other down and instead lift each other up. We won’t agree 100% of the time, but some solidarity would be nice.
If we don’t present a united front… we lose. We will burn out our advocates. We’ve already lost a number of great ones who couldn’t take the stress and vitriol. Whatever you’re doing is enough.
You are enough. We’re living through unprecedented times, we must have grace.
Honestly, seeing Timbaland push generative AI in music is massively disappointing. It's one thing seeing a random tech bro using it, but seeing a respected talent and producer not just using it, but actively promoting it makes me wonder if the creative process is worth it in today's day and age.
#creative #AIdisappointment
More RPG illustrations! This one also for 5th edition of Eon, published by Helmgast (soon to be in print!).
Digital painting made in #krita .
I’m sharing this #GoFundMe for my best friend. 😉 Mogget’s family has had some financial struggles this year, so she needs a little help. Her vet bills for a recent injury are growing, and she has no gainful employment. I know, right? What a freeloader! She also has no social media presence, and is relying on word of mouth for her campaign. I can vouch for her. She’s a sweetie, even when she’s not. A boost would mean everything to her. ❤️ https://gofund.me/eeb3dc44
If you need a piece of art for anything and are considering using generative "AI" to do it - STOP RIGHT THERE, you still have time to be a good human being and not be part of the mass theft and environmental disaster that using those machines supports!!!
Instead, hire and artist.
You get something truly original.
You support a human, not failing big tech.
You don't hurt the environment.
And, you can actually use the art without running into "oh, this can't be copyrighted" issues.
The pain of wanting to paint with gouache something amazing but you have comic to ink and color, comicbook illustrations to finish, and client to try to hunt down since they seem to have having some issues with replying to me....
Also trying to find commissions.
If you know anyone who needs anything, including NSFW, hit me up. If it is anything I have never made, they can get a small discount on the order. (;
And if you would like to support me, I do have a Patreon and a Ko-fi.
patreon.com/miswiredke
ko-fi.com/miswired
Relationships can be hard to understand. Doubly so when you don't grasp social queues well. In this post, I talk about how I ended up dealing with them.
https://miswired254.wordpress.com/2025/06/06/my-complicated-relationship-with-relationships/
So just a heads up for people who aren’t queer, this Pride eve; Pride is around the corner and it’s probably going to feel a little different than usual.
• Expect it to feel angrier. We joke that July is Wrath month, but don’t be surprised if people at Pride events are a bit more on edge, our signs punchier, and our jokes sharper.
• Allies: more than ever before, be aware that you are guests in a queer space. Many of us are going to need the space to feel safe and comfortable for us now, more than ever.
• We have a gay agenda (see the above quote), don’t try to distract from it with platitudes. With trans people under an organized, legislative attack and nearly 60% of Republicans being against same-sex marriage, none of us are safe this year.
• Let’s not do the “Pride events need to be family friendly”. They generally are, but our family is angry.
@hrb @thecontinent we will absolutely miss this legend of literature. As a Kenyan, his books have been prescribed as reading literature in high school in the Kenyan system. I may not follow his literary style, but he's definitely influenced some of my work.
Some of my most controversial opinions:
– Children deserve food
– Healthcare shouldn’t be a punishment
– Teachers shouldn’t need side hustles to survive
Wild stuff, I know.
So, I was watching this video by a historian I like on YouTube, and the video was about how high the infant mortality rate was in Medieval times, and I commented that a lot of women died young in childbirth as well. Seems pretty innocuous, and demonstrably true, right?
Apparently, I angered the men of the internet who raged that MEN ALSO DIED!
I had no idea so many men died in childbirth!
I freelance for The Stardust Book Services as a map maker, and you too can buy maps through them if you like - the service is easy to use, and supports small creators such as myself!
You can find their (and my) services and prices here:
https://www.stardustbookservices.com/cartography
#Maps #fantasy #fantasymaps #art #books #bookstodon #author #indieauthor #illustration #illustrator #artcommission #commission #opencommissions
You can also commission art like this straight from me too! Just email me at:
hiisikoloart@gmail.com
and I will give you a quote for the project.
Prices start from small maps (like an island) 50€ and rise for huge maps like this one up to 500€.
For traditionally painted maps the price startsaround 1K.
All prices cover tax, and paypal fee. No hidden costs. Turnaround 1-2 months.
#art #maps #fantasymap #digitalart #books #bookstodon #opencommissions
I have open spots for 1-2 map commissions per month, and will charge a deposit from commissions that aren't being paid right away.
I offer part payment options via Paypal.
As a bonus, you get good Karma from buying from me as you support trans person with disabilities just trying to make it through another month. (:
If you have any questions about commissioning art from me - comment below or send me an email!
The comic is also aivailable in my Ko-fi to be read, and downloaded as high-res images for personal use! There you can get sneak peeks for the physical comic book project if you are a supporter, and get to see the sketches of each comic I have created and more!
I have also available commissions, and random updates there as well. (:
Support this passion project in my Ko-fi:
https://ko-fi.com/i/IV7V01FQE65
#disabledartist #comic #webcomic #idiopathichypersomnia #sleepdisorder #disability #kofi #art
New comic about exhaustion, types of it, with a side of covid awareness (my character always masks outside in crowds etc.), and also 150th comic in the series. (:
Please share, like, do the stuff to help my comic spread awareness about #idiopathichypersomnia to those who have not yet heard about it!
https://tapas.io/episode/3549372
#comic #covid #maskup #webcomic #disability #disabilityawareness #sleepdisorder #sleep #passionproject
And if you would like to support me, I do have a Patreon and a Ko-fi.
patreon.com/miswiredke
