One thing that happened during the days I did not post here was that me and Lion officially ended our relationship. 💔 It reached 7 years.
We "broke up" basically a year after he asked me to move out last year. Last year was a surprise but this year we took a common decision. Personally I decided that was likely the way to go during Christmas. But despite being prepared for the decision I have been having so many weird feelings throughout January 😵💫 There has been an emptyness that I was not expecting; feeling more alone on solo days and nights, grief about what we have had, feeling less supported/more unstable, jealousy of people having easier access to their long distance relationships, instincts to go looking for a new relationship and so on...
Today I already had a troubled state of feelings/mind when me and Lion took the same bus from the dogs daycare (my week dropping dog of, he takes the bus there every day). We had a polite and practical talk for the trip. But my feelings got even more complicated, hearing about the long distance partner he has visiting and just generally being together. ❤️🩹
This is a tough and complicated transition to being "just" friends and doggoparents together...
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