One thing that happened during the days I did not post here was that me and Lion officially ended our relationship. 💔 It reached 7 years.

We "broke up" basically a year after he asked me to move out last year. Last year was a surprise but this year we took a common decision. Personally I decided that was likely the way to go during Christmas. But despite being prepared for the decision I have been having so many weird feelings throughout January 😵‍💫 There has been an emptyness that I was not expecting; feeling more alone on solo days and nights, grief about what we have had, feeling less supported/more unstable, jealousy of people having easier access to their long distance relationships, instincts to go looking for a new relationship and so on...

Today I already had a troubled state of feelings/mind when me and Lion took the same bus from the dogs daycare (my week dropping dog of, he takes the bus there every day). We had a polite and practical talk for the trip. But my feelings got even more complicated, hearing about the long distance partner he has visiting and just generally being together. ❤️‍🩹
This is a tough and complicated transition to being "just" friends and doggoparents together...

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It was lovely having my lover visit 😊
I met him at the train station and after a bit of confusion and strolling through town we chose a restaurant. Got the coziest table in the house, good service and great food and drinks 😋
It is rare for me to go on a "traditional" eat out date worth dressing up for, but it was really nice 💖
Then we went back to my place. 😴
This morning he went to the airport ✈️
It was nice giving him some hugs, kisses and support as he is going to care for a sick family member for some time.

This evening I have been talking to Slow Lori as she was driving home from one of her other partners ❤️
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Today I sent the same cute selfie to both my lovers. 🙃
To one it was to remind him of the date we had on Wednesday 🥰
To the other to excite for the date we will have tomorrow 😘
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I will spend my first Christmas with Slow Lori and her family and more this year 🎄
Tonight me, Slow Lori and her two children will go to one of her other partners where Christmas will happen tomorrow 🎁
Since I have a basic set of toothbrush and so at Slow Loris I don't bring that with me when I visit her. Now I need to back that set to bring for a sleepover. It feels like a big good thing 🪥 Been thinking quite a bit about how natural it is to call Slow Loris home as my home today 💝
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Sorry for the hiatus! Let's see if I can get back into the habit of updating this profile semi-daily 🙃
Me, my mother and brother celebrated Christmas this weekend (pre-celebration is a long tradition and very practical)🎄
So today me and my mother was on a train so she could go home and I could go to Slow Lori 🚂
A few seats from us I found an acquaintance/low-key flirt that was going home to his family for Christmas (to the town my mother lives in).
So we did a little bit of catching up/flirting and will hopefully have a fika in the beginning of next year 😊
Next stop: Slow Loris embrace that I have been longing to feel around me 💗
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Found myself flitingly smiling at a man with black curly hair on todays commute. 😉
What is the relevance of his hair? Well it is the same type/style as one of my new lovers has.🖤
It is so clear that whom I am relating with (especially in the early flirty, high attraction stages) affects who I "check out". 😘
Last time it was super clear was when I had a few dates with a person with long hair that usually had it in a bun. He stopped seeing me but I kept being low key attracted to that hairstyle for a few months 😜
Associations are interesting things and it definitely widens my "type" in the long run 😊
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Have had a lovely weekend with Slow Lori 💝

It took me a while to get into being present with her. These last week's have been a lot of heavy thinking about several relationship that are in a state of flux/change. With a lover, my father and with Lion + some work changes. That made me arrive in a very broody mindset on Thursday.🤔

Friday I went to a friend that lives in a neighboring city to Slow Lori. It was lovely being able to vent some of my broodiness there too and not just to Slow Lori. 😝

Saturday and our half of the Sunday I could be much more present and enjoy Slow Lori as we went to an art exhibition, cooked food, talked a lot, kissed a lot, watched some TV and had some sex 💖

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Today I got to meet Slow Loris partner K for the first time 💝
They are together at a dance weekend that is only 1,5 hour of train from me and had some downtime today. Me and K have been curious about each other sometime but living 3 hours apart has made it hard to meet until today.
We had a lovely time 💖 We mostly hung out at a café, talking and laughing with Slow Lori in the middle 😊
Looking forward to seeing each other again whenever that happens 🥰
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On friday my dad called and asked me for help or more exactly "I need one of your computer nerds" 😜
(There is an overwhelming majority of the people I date and do relationships with being a programmer or alike🖥️)
So today Lion was kind enough to be computer support to my father 💝
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Went to a dance evening where we are a lot of poly-peeps. 💗
It is the place and kind of event that I meet Slow Lori at. So I always long for her a bit during these evenings 💃
But the place is two blocks from where one of my lovers/dates lives. And a little over a week ago we had a very hot date at his place❤️‍🔥. So walking to the event my lust pulled me towards his apartment, "luckily" I knew he was away at another event, so I was not sidetracked from going to the dance. 😜
Now after some dancing I am going home to Lion so we can have a date-day tomorrow 💗
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In the span of a month I had 3 different partners/lovers visit me, all using the shower. And it has been interesting noticing who uses the rubber scrape next to the shower to "clean" it after themselves and who does not. 🚿
Only one of them did and it was one of the lovers that are new in my life and not my partner 🙃 He got some praise for that 💝

Also who is okey to use my towel for a shower and who wants to get a new one just for themselves.
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The other day I realized that it is soon Slow Loris birthday. 🥳
And as recently I checked through new things from my favorite ecological clothing shop I came across some underwear I liked to see her in (because colors). But that raised some questions, like what size does she wear? 🤔
So today I have been chatting with my metamour D to see if they had more insight in what size, material and more Slow Lori like.
Turns out we have the same perception of what Slow Lori could like, so I got D's blessing. 😊 Apparently, worst case scenario, (not liking it) Slow Lori is likely to give the underwear to D. 🙃
So I am going ahead with the plan 💝
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Let me just tell you;
It is an absolute luxury to be able to talk about polyamory with one of my bosses, about how it is part of both our lives 💗
It was a little bit of the dinner conversation during today's work conference 🙃
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Tonight one of my dates/lovers/something from Sexibility is coming to visit me for two days. It is the first time we see each other outside of the festival. The date nervousness and excitement comes and goes in waves 🥴

The thing I am most nervous about is the contrast between the festival where a lot of practical things are "simpler" compared to seeing each other in the "normal world". Suddenly stuff like food, how clean my apartment is, how tired he is after traveling, that I need work, my doggo and more are factors that will affect us and our connection.🫣
But when my mind stresses away I try to land in the memory of that when we seduced each other I was in my pyjamas and that I think very few things matter once our lips touch again 💖

My two partners and the other date/lover/something is hoping I have a good time 💗
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The polyamorous and sexual synergy that has been my life since this years Sexibility festival is absolutely amazing and bonkers 🥰🌪️
The short summary from the festival is that it has resulted in two date/lovers/something relationships, a bunch of friends/contacts and one new bestie that I brag like crazy to about the whirlwind of eros that are still blowing 😉🌬️

Along all this newness my relationship with Lion has passed into its 7:th year and Slow Lori is all sorts of support and joy 💖
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