Earlier today, @carasutra shared this excellent article from her site:
How I Dominate My Slaves: A Domme Point Of View
https://carasutra.com/2019/08/how-i-dominate-my-slaves-domme-point-of-view/
"This makes female dominance something of an oddity, when it comes to many people’s opinion of this area of BDSM. Even for many people within the BDSM sphere."
I did femdom and pro-domination about a dozen lifetimes ago, and Cara's observation is definitely one I could have signed off on (among a lot more in there). But in terms of my present experiences, her article started a train of thought that reminded me of something else:
Transmasc dominants appear to be vanishingly rare.
Which is interesting, because D/S doesn't necessarily even have the potential technical/dysphoria issues that go with topping vs bottoming for many transmasculine people (sex is optional, straps and hands and toys exist, surgical modifications can be functionally amazing, and, and for all of that, a bottom can be a potent dominant - I'll refer you to my last fic drop).
And okay, I'm pretty strongly dom-leaning† and have been for a long time, but the surging emotionality and power that go with testosterone, not to mention the sheer urge to fuck something, anything; the shades of physical transcendence; of overturning and imposing one's will upon the limitations of mere biological chance...
....it all feels like exactly the kind of thing to make you want to put someone in their place, whimpering at your feet for a taste of your boot, of the lash, for the opportunity to worship you, to be stripped of autonomy and shown the intimacy of the most exquisite and loving pain and debasement.
There are some strong Do Unto vibes to be found in that little glass vial††.
So, I'd be expecting a lot of transmasc doms, in both T4T pairings and those that involve cis people.
Honestly, I have no answers here, but I'm at this point determined to continue finding transmascs to dominate, take apart, and explore the inner workings of, even to train into dominance themselves, until I get my fucking answers.
I wonder if something that might factor into my experience is that, for quite a while before transition (before the aroace period that preceded it) I moved in predominately lesbian spaces, where - obviously - female and female-adjacent dominance is the norm (although there are interesting things to say about butch/femme archetypes), and it was thus normalised to acquire that skillset and a specific self-image as a dominant if you were at all that way inclined.
Is this a matter of access?
That trans guys, especially those who moved and move in more androphilic circles lacked for opportunities to express and embody dominance, weren't encouraged to hone a razor's edge onto their affection, to place a gentle guard on weaponised vitriol sufficient to make it safe to inflict on others?
Is it simply a matter of submission being easier if - even if you are not subconsciously feminised - you are generally perceived as smaller, as a thing that gets fucked, as archetypally breedable†††?
Because, my beautiful, fucked-up boys, some of you could be so good at dominance. And will be if I get half a chance to influence you.
† which makes it all the more fun when I don't
†† humming "Zytrate comes in a little glass vial. A little glass vial? A little glass vial .. and the Zytrate gun goes somewhere against your anatomy"
††† don't get me fucking started on this one. It's definitely fun to play with psychologically, but also, I've literally bred, and kink-breedability and sexual reproduction feel like they exist in very different spaces.
#BDSM #transmasculinity #dominance