#Seeking, #why seeking?, #what do we seek?
I have no idea in the end, even if all of us seek the same thing. Everything that I have seen inclines me to believe that some people seek nothing at all. What are they? And is it even true? Is it true, or not that we seek something, all of us? That we seek to know ourselves? Whatever that self is. Then comes the question, why do we seek something, why do we seek to know ourselves? Because we want fulfillment, a sort of contentment in our own inner being. What's that being? I do not know how to answer to that. Surely, for this search to even begin, we must assume that we have a self, no? Else, what it is that we seek? I do not know what being is. I would like to know honestly. Some people chase after external things: fame, status, power, recognition by a community or group, they want to belong, they want to be known, they want to be accepted, they want to be loved, they want to be admired. There are people who have a contrary instinct, and, I liked to believe, that I am of this latter kind—they want solitude, they have a need for it, they try to know themselves in other ways, by musing, by thinking, by reflecting. Maybe a mix is required, a mix between the two, not simply standing and thinking all the time, and isolating yourself from your fellows, but not being with them that much either. To reduce a bit the venom of our inner loneliness, that is why we seek others, but why do we seek our own solitude? Who knows. It is still to know ourselves. Why are those people going away from the human world? Due to too much disenchantment? Maybe, possible, that is possible indeed.
The problem is, I already assumed that people seek themselves, how do I know? How do I know that this is so? Some may not seek themselves at all, or,they don't think they have a self, this feeling would be unconscious, and that is why they seek those external things, that is the reason for validation, let us say.
If we were to sit in a room, with only the four walls surrounding us, simply sit down, think, muse meditate, not only of our choices, besides this question, what we should be asking is: what is the self I have? What are its properties? Do those properties define the self completely? How much do they define this illusory construct? This self? We could assume a lot of things? But already there are many unknowns, those unknowns will be encountered eventually, no matter which path one chooses to walk. Don't we all face this question, but in different forms? What is this Self? Those forms are: where am I going? What do I want? What are my aims? Those questions don't strike at the root; .they do not go further in addressing it. The root is another question: what is this self?
If the road, as some spiritual teachers claim, is important, not the destination. – To that aphorism someone could reply with, "If I don't know where I am going? If I don't know who or what I am, if I don't know what I'm doing? Then, this saying crumbles down. All that remains is for me to spin around in circles, which look this moment as circles, the next as squares, and who knows as what else the next moment." In other words, we need more than this to finally get to whatever, or wherever, we wish to arrive.
We all have assumptions. Let's question these, and see where it takes us. I have no idea what else can be done.