“Recovery”
Hey it’s me, I’m back again.
We used to be the best of friends.
You first met me, then fell in love.
You couldn’t seem to get enough.
That very first time was unforgettable,
Yet it seemed to also be unachievable.
But still, you would try and you would try-
To replace that very first high;
No matter how many people said “goodbye.”
You started making me number one,
More important than any daughter or son.
Oh, how our time always feels so brief.
You are now even losing your teeth…
I now control your life completely.
You do what I tell you repeatedly.
You stab yourself over and over again;
Searching for veins like they’re friends.
You no longer care how you look.
You’re nothing but a fish on my hook;
You’re my toy, I refuse to let you go.
My God, how did my story get so low?
You start just trying to OD and die-
Feeling already dead on the inside;
Feeling so fucking alone to the core-
No one answers their phone anymore.
But one day you say “enough;”
I’m tired of trying to be tough.
I can’t do this on my own;
I can’t fight like this alone.
So I kicked you out of my life,
And you took all that pain and strife-
That I had been holding on to for years.
I can’t explain all of the happy tears;
I still come knocking from time to time…
But now I know what to do with your kind.
So I stay as far away as I can;
And I trust in God, that’s my plan.
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