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I get that. I think that I can handle crowds in some circumstances because I was one of those kids that used to hang around in shopping malls with friends (ok, usually just one, but it was enough). That and being #ActuallyADHD as well probably helps.

Aujourd'hui, l'enfant et moi sommes allées à la Japan Expo de notre ville. Grosse session apprentissage gestion de l'argent pour la poulette : prévoir un budget, gérer un budget, demander les prix, faire ses achats, gérer l'impulsivité, gérer la frustration... Elle s'est débrouillée comme un chef, je suis si fière d'elle 💛
#actuallyAutisticFR #actuallyadhd

@adhd_coffee
Ok, finished it now. All of it was great and I'd recommend to anyone with ADHD or knows someone who is or might be. I love that doctor. For a therapist, she is one that actually knows what she's talking about and doing. But that last 15-20 minutes of Trevor wrapping it up was just beautiful. 🥲 Seriously, watch the whole thing. Doesn't have to be all at once either (I did it in 3 parts).
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Dodged an overwhelm bullet today.
Already had a 90-minute group chat, later is a trip to the busiest neighborhood in town for some errands, then a family b-day dinner.

what was the bullet?

Going to the Fremont Fair - the biggest street fair in Seattle.

Thankfully the family member who actually wanted to go and asked for support decided against the crowds.

::whew:: 🥴

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If I'd known the carnival parade was on today I'd have planned my day round it so I could enjoy it. Instead I've been out for my exercise & to make of fun & useful stopped by the market to get a couple of things & have a browse.

Then, I'm starting the walk home along the main shopping street & the side roads (including the one I walked up) have signs blocking vehicle traffic. There's also clusters of people clearly waiting for something to happen.

Get home, sit down Cuz I'm a little knackered but happy & ready for lunch. Got to hop on the internet & find out what be happening… Eventually find a website that tells me & isn't a newspaper behind a compulsory "Pay-Up or feck-off" wall.

Would have liked to hang around for the parade but it started raining, I was ready for home & I'd like my lunch sooner rather than later.

Will have to do better at keeping up with what is / will be happening / organised in town or thereabouts in future.
If my ADHD will ever let me remember to check the websites from time to time.

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Life

Okay body of mine, I've got up & taken a painkiller, then crawled back into the sleep apparatus known as B.E.D. The painkiller has been working for nearly an hour now, so why won't you let me sleep?

What's with, 'here's a screening of random bad decisions from your past' ?

Okay, fine… I'll get on Mastodon if it will stop this self-torture.

Why have I got a masochist for a brain?
*Kneels down in giant puddle, in a horrendous rainstorm & rants at the sky *
Whhhhhyyyyyy‽

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Sleep #Insomnia #SleepProblems

Today marks the one year anniversary of my AuDHD diagnosis. And what a year this has been. I was able to receive medication (MPH) for my ADHD. I started to get help from a local autism counselor. I've opened up about my diagnose at work. And the most recent, I got acknowledged to be severely disabled by German law.

After 15+ years of bad mental health, this has been the most "productive" year for me in discovering what has caused all those problems. And it's not the AuDHD. It was the fact, that my AuDHD went undiscovered and nobody, not even myself, was aware that it's there. All those years I just tried to function ... and failed miserably. 15 years later, today I finally see things turning to the better.

I'm thinking of writing a thank-you e-mail to my diagnosing therapist. This diagnosis has opened doors for me that I would never have thought or even hoped of.

#ActuallyAuDHD #ActuallyAutistic #actuallyadhd

Which is pretty incredible given that I love water, have the attention span of a gnat, & am very easily lured away by animals & plants & bugs & shiny rocks... and honestly just the pretty glint of water in motion.

We can glean two things from this;

1) my dad's family are a bunch of monsters. Creative, but monsters.

2) tales of forest & water spirits like kelpies, the Erlking, & the Leshy were created for easily distracted #actuallyautistic & #actuallyADHD kids 😅

We've always been here!

@roknrol dang my friend. could you please write my biography also? LOL
In seriousness, this is a constant problem I have had!
Stress plus random demand (meaning even light convo with friends) makes just existing impossible at times until I snap into "serving myself" finally.
Water and food get put last very quickly- I had lost 40lbs in about 2 months a coulle years back due to this same issue, it was extremely sketchy for a time.
Very glad you are ok from that one and identified it too.
#ActuallyAutistc #ActuallyAdhd #ActuallyAudhd

I present to you one of my most important works of boring school classes.

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Something about me that I feel is frequently misunderstood:

if you need me to change what I am doing in an area I am not strong in, I am going to have to brainstorm and come up with specific solutions.

Me saying "ok, this is tricky, how can I do this?" is not me complaining about how hard the thing is: it's literally me trying to make a long-term sustainable change instead of a flash in the pan.

#ADHD #ActuallyADHD

I added texture to the background of my #website...and it makes me feel like I can touch it.

I love the idea of holding the pages of a website like a #book...what kind of "wear" would a beloved website show with repeat readings?

Would favorite pages have dog-eared corners instead of browser bookmarks?

Feel free to touch: https://fromemily.com

#SmallWeb #IndieWeb #WebDev #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD #PoeticWeb #HandMadeWeb

The best method to quiet my overthinking brain is getting a tattoo.

Guess what I'm doing today 🥰

#adhdbrain #adhd #actuallyadhd

Just in case anyone else needs this and doesn't know: I got a migraine from a mast cell reaction because of something I ate. I take a daily antihistamine, and after the migraine started, I took Pepcid AC, within an hour the migraine was gone. This is especially important if you, like me, are in the middle of the hypermobility/neurodivergent/mast cell venn diagram. #ActuallyAutistic #ActuallyADHD #hypermobility #MastCellActivation #migraine

Okay, second day where my brain has hijacked things & instead of getting on with planned activity I ended up on the internet, looking at & comparing various options & costs of vitamins & supplements.
Not sure why it needs to be looked into in such a rush as I'm not in a rush… at least I don't think I am.

Result = after breakfast that's all I got done. Then it was after 15:00 & I needed to grab lunch cuz I was getting hungry.

Another day where tea will be late as I shoehorn in the tasks I wanted to do before lunch.

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Hyperfocus

New post over on Barefoot Rambling. Finally. Sigh. Been a rough few weeks over here.

https://barefootrambling.com/posts/autistic-radar-auti-radar-autidar

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Reason 4806 for giving me written info:
Supposed to be attending funeral & wake today.
Only given verbal instructions on time & place.
Trying to outsmart my brain so I'd be there at the right time I put it into my phone calendar with reminders.
Get to the day & I figure I should give myself anyway extra 15 minutes to get there as I always end up running late.
Time in the title/description …? Is that for the funeral or the wake? … must be for the wake as the leaving time I've set for the last reminder would get me there half an hour early at my usual pace & taking late departure into account.

Get to the crematorium for the funeral but nobody is there. There is a funeral cortege arriving but it's clearly family only as it's very short & the place is devoid of other vehicles for other attendees.

Back to car. Did they change the funeral to family only & no one told me?
Maybe, fair enough. Or am I too early or late?
Well, I can drive to where the wake is happening. Gey there at about the time… agaon, nobody there for a wake. Internally I'mfreaking out.I'll just wait outside, they'llturn up eventually, won't they?

It's been just over half an hour & I'm losing trust in anything about this funeral.

Time to go home & console myself with whatever I have the energy to console myself with.

#Life #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #EpicFails

My brain's been serving up some real darkness lately.

(And when an #ActuallyAutistic brain latches onto something, it COMMITS 🙃)

So I'm reminding myself that in this world (especially at this time) ✨#Autistic Joy✨ is an act of defiant resistance.

And I'll be damned if I don't remember to stand in awe of all I've weathered, and of our #neurodivergent culture as a whole.

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I was looking through some more #ADHD stuff this morning, and found out that caffeine can have unexpected effects.

Which triggered a childhood memory of trying to explain to people that caffeine didn't seem to affect me. In fact, it sometimes made me drowsy.

I also gave it up cold turkey - after 4-5 years of drinking an average of a 2 litre bottle of Pepsi a day - and suffered no withdrawal symptoms.

#ActuallyADHD