Lmst

oof. i took a moment with the normies' stream.

... still need more recovery time.

good reminder. dont go in there while effectively unarmed with an insufficiency of #spoons

#actuallyautistic #burnouttakestwiceaslongtorecoverfromthanyouthink

I attended my local #NoKings protest. It’s amazing that there was a local protest. Normally I’d have to schlep into Washington DC to find a protest, but this one was 3 miles away. In the suburbs. There were probably a few hundred people there. There was an overwhelming amount of support from cars driving by, from grandparents, to small kids, to bus drivers and truck drivers, and even a police officer. I left about an hour early and then had to sleep for a couple hours because I used too many #spoons to attend ( #chronicillness ). But it was worth it. Thank you to everyone across the country and around the world who participated!!

Also a big shoutout to the sousaphone guy!

Writing captions and #AltText unfortunately prevents me from posting most days, thanks to a lack of #spoons. We went to the #sea for a midweek, here’s a photo of it. #beach

A portrait oriented photo of a blonde 5 year old sitting on her knees in the sand next to the sea, wearing a blue bathing suit, purple and orange swimming vest and neon yellow water shoes. She’s dripping mud through her fingers onto the beach. Her face is not visible, as we find our child’s privacy very important. The sky is blue without clouds, the sea is quite calm with just the start of a small wave starting to grow a few meters from the beach. It was a hot day, luckily there was a nice breeze on the beach. Our kid rescued a lot of jellyfish. She calls herself a nature witch.

Elaine Benes voice: I can't spare a spoon, I don't have a spoon to spare

#spoons

I can do math.

But if I don't know how many #spoons I have on any given day at any given hour, how am I supposed to spend them.

How do I make sure to keep a few in reserve for emergency situations?

How do I keep extra for encountering pushback & frustration (don't cry!) & anticipation of a worse situation, while staying calm & caring?

While spending the ones set aside for cooking a simple meal to feed brain cells?

How to math how many days to get them back?

#LongCovid #PEM #MEcfs

Feeling wierdly inspired to make a schedule or roster. Problem is I know I'm either, A) going to try it & fail within minutes, hours, days or at some point in the second week or, B) will find myself unable to try it because I've forgotten there's things I need to do that don't fit or because I just don't have the dice/spoons/battery.

It is of course typical that I'm settling down to have supper & watch a film before making an attempt to get to bed before 00:30 instead of after 02:30 when.this urge has to strike. I would like to be able to enjoy my mornings without sleeping or dozing through them.
Fingers 🤞 the movie & my supper distract me enough to leave it till a more sensible time.

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Hyperfocus #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #Focus #Life #Sleep #SleepProblems

...and now for the really hard hitting news

Man balances 96 spoons on his body to break his own world record

https://www.upi.com/Odd_News/2025/05/21/iran-Guinness-World-Records-spoons-balanced/3351747843033/

#news #spoons #worldrecord

Keeping it clean

Not too many people I know love cleaning. And then, there's some that get a sense of joy and endorphins of cleaning... Unfortunately, I am not someone that enjoys cleaning. And, I've never been very good at it... I try, and it's not like that it's too bad, and mice and other vermin are running rampage in my house... There's just a very hairy and sandy Labrador. 😉 But, it' definitely not as clean as it could be. There is one very valid excuse for it, at the moment. Ever since we moved into this little house, the area has been a construction area. First, many houses were still being built. Then, it finally calmed down an bit... But, now the city is working on "improving the area", which is very much needed, as we still don't have any normal parking places. But! That means more construction, more sand, more dust, so more annoyance with me... […]

https://cynnisblog.wordpress.com/2025/05/26/keeping-it-clean/

A digital artwork featuring a black Labrador retriever with a neon blue outline against a vibrant pink and purple background. The dog is centered in the image, with a serious expression. Surrounding the dog are several colorful cardboard boxes. The text "Keeping it clean" is written in a playful, neon-style font at the bottom of the image.

Back from #mpn specialist, in an awful mood because she said one of my trigger phrases "that shouldn't be happening", no shit sherlock. They have stopped my meds because of all the bleeding events and booked some scans and an endoscopy to look around for damage and/or clues as to what is happening. No progress on #painmanagement because that would be too useful. Already used all my #spoons for the day. #mecfs #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #ChronicIllnesses

Saturday was World Fiddle Day, so my friends and I attended a cèilidh.

#fiddle #music #guitar #accordion #spoons #Irishtrad

Three fiddlers, a guitar player, a spoon player, an accordionist and some onlookers attend an outdoor fiddle jam on World Fiddle Day in Ontario.

@sunumbral wine definitely doesn't require spoons... Some say it may even replenish!! Or you fall asleep and wake up with a fresh batch of #spoons.

It's International #MECFS Day so here is how my day is going.

Woke at 0430 after 2 hours sleep, arms are heavy and brain is fizzing, I can't hold a thought, I get myself to the bathroom and wash my face, etc before returning to bed and prop myself up to watch old telly, my #visible armband is already warning me I'm in danger of going over my #spoons for the day. It hits 0800 and everyone else gets up so I put on my brave face, carefully make my way downstairs and join them for breakfast.

1/4

What became of my usually busy day with a medium to heavy peopling afternoon?

I had my reasons for not wanting a Windoze PC, ever.
I failed to leave the house for artistic peopling & shopping.
I failed to leave the house to just do shopping.

I did tackle some washing up.
I did read my paper & my books & some lunch in between.
I just about made tea.

Now, wrapping my head round delousing the PC or I might leave it till tomorrow.

Either way, I've felt ready to crash the whole day.

…

Sod it, PC can wait, where's the TV's HDMI cable? My laptop needs it!

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons

How a little problem can wreck a day on Planet Autistic:

No art group for me today. To many spoons & time wasted on trying to watch Netflix on a freshly de-Copiloted Win 10 nightmare.

Just going to do my household task(s) & maybe drag myself out on a food purchasing run, probably on foot as I'm not sure I can handle driving right now. Though I'm not sure I'm up for walking anywhere either.

If I get my arse in gear & get things done early enough, & dice / spoon reserves permitting, I'll fix the PC by switching to my preferred Linux OS that doesn't block me from enjoying the websites I enjoy.
If not, I'll hook my TV up to my laptop & deal with the PC another day.

There's probably more but those spoons have been obliterated so I can't see or feel or sound out what to write about it.

EDIT: Nope, definitely not enough spoonery in the jar so no going out the door into the big, real world outside. Can't even face getting changed into my people facing gear.

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons

It occurs to me that what most old-time music needs is *more*spoons, not less.

Imagine if you will, the sheer raw percussive power of six, eight, a *dozen* people playing the spoons in perfect unison.

Shit, I think I'm going to have to start a spoons section in the local old-time scene.

#OldTime #Folk #FolkMusic #spoons

Life for my young one can be pretty tough. Being an #autistic adult, with the sensory processing disorder that so many autistic people have means rest, to recupe #spoons, happens regularly throughout the week days. In addition to any night time routine.
Still, while I'm rattling around the place on my own I've been able to:
Feed the animals
Dispense all meds
Water the plants
Wash and dry a load of clothes
Load the dishwasher
Hoover downstairs
And now I'm enjoying a filled omelette & cuppa.

I just didn't have the #spoons yesterday to host someone, I needed a day to myself. So they dumped me.

I hate being in a weird post stress mode. My face & eyes feel like I've spent half the day crying when I haven't. I also feel like anything could tip me over emotionally for no reason.

Not knowing when I'll snap out of it as I can't communicate properly when I'm locked into this , I don't know, major stress incident aftermath mode.

I think maybe my depression got a power boost or two or three & I got the opposite. Would love to crawl under a rock but that would mean, getting changed, going out into the world & finding a suitable rock. I can't face going out.

#Life #Stress #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Depression #Burnout #Spoons

Just blogged! This time about a lovely badge I got sent. A #Spoonbot which decoratively gives an indication of how many remaining spoons the wearer possesses! #opensource #oshwa #spoons #socialbattery
https://concretedog.blogspot.com/2025/04/lovely-friends-make-lovely-things-steam.html

A picture of a Spoonbot badge on my desk. The full colour PCB has a cheeky little robot standing on it with a battery Icon for a torso, this has a bar graph of red-yellow-green LED's which are showing full "spoon" capacity.

John Cleese voice:

Right! Spoons. I'm getting sick & tired of you all melting at the first sign of having to do something, even something as simple as clearing up your own mess.
Now, I want you to pull yourselves together, get changed for setting foot outside the house & then proceeding to get on with the task set.
…
Are we clear?

Me giving myself a mental pep talk.

#AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Burnout #Spoons

#spoons

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